I really wanted to write my personal experience on here because before I had my abortion I read tons of negative things about it and it scared me to death to where I almost chickened out. I was raised Catholic and attended Catholic schools my entire life and was always taught that abortions were the worst thing you could possibly do. I never even thought I would consider one , I was the type of person who judged girls who got them and thought they were irresponsible and evil for killing a child but when it happened to me , my opinion completely changed. I am now completely pro choice . So whoever wants to judge me go ahead, I believe it would have been more irresponsible to bring a child into this world when I am no where near prepared for one.
I am 20 years old, attending law school and have a bs part time job where I make $8 an hour, I have been with my boyfriend for three years now and he doesn't go to school and also works a bs job making only $10. My parents would have made me move in with him and his family, they have a small home where 7 of his family members already live, they do not have space for 2 more. initially when I found out I was pregnant I was set on keeping it until I really thought about it, I knew I would have had to quit school, quit my job for a while and live off of my boyfriends $10 an hour paycheck , take care of a child day after day , probably quit school all together and just worked minimum wage for a long time. I know me and my boyfriends relationship would crumble because of the pressure a baby would bring to a young relationship and I did not want my baby to live between two homes and c us argue over the baby , money, ect. We are just too young. My boyfriend told me that he didn't think we should keep it but if I chose to keep it he would support me no matter what. My best friend wanted me to keep it and gave me s*&@ about it the whole time. But I made my decision on my own because I was the one who was going to take care of the baby, not my boyfriend, friend , or parents. I know c how irresponsible I was thinking it wouldn't happen to me but it did . I regret it now, I wish I would've never been put in this situation but I made my decision and will now have to live with the fact that I killed my first baby because I was too scared to raise it . I am not bashing pro life or pro choice opinions. I believe everyone's decision was right for that person, if you decide to keep your child kudos to you , if you decide to have an abortion I also commend you . Abortion isn't right for everyone, you have to really think about it, and be strong because it will tear you apart.
As for the actual abortion experience : I first went to planned parenthood, they were not supportive at all, made me wait 2 hours just to pee in a cup and tell me i'm pregnant i then had to call a hotline and make an app. to actually get the abortion pill. I called and the guy was a complete jerk, and gave me an app. for 2 weeks later ( I would've been 7 weeks pregnant) . I did not want to wait I wanted to just get it over with so I researched more places and found My Choice in Van Nuys Ca. I called at 12:30 am expecting to get a voicemail and someone answered she answered all of my questions and offered me an app. the next day. I actually needed it Thurs because it worked out in my schedule and she gave me that day and the time I needed . One of my friends went with me ( but if you don't have anyone to go with you , you have nothing to worry about because they are the nicest ladies and are very supportive) They took me in and let my friend come in with me (unlike planned parenthood ) they pricked my finger and tested my blood ( you have to get another shot if your blood is negative) mine was positive and they took me to get an ultrasound to make sure the embryo was actually in there. The monitor is facing away from you but I asked to see it and she let me , I even asked for a picture and she gave it to me ( she said I was the first person ever to ask for a picture ) I wanted to remember the baby , even if it was a painful memory for me I couldn't pretend it never existed ( Im weird I know) . Another woman explained the whole process to me and gave me my first pill. She also gave me a prescription for antibiotics , painkillers and nausea. I went home and felt completely normal ( even went to my boyfriends basketball game that night). Friday morning I took my antibiotic pill and threw up ( I was pretty scared )
Saturday was the day to take the last pills. I woke up at 7 am to take the antibiotic and threw up again so I was terrified to take the 4 pills. I took the last 4 pills and an hour later the bleeding began. It wasn't insane bleeding, it was like if you have a bad period. I began to get cramps, even cried because they were painful, but nothing out of this world. Im sure I had a period that felt like that before. My cramps lasted no more than 2 hours and they were gone. The day went on and I was a little weak because I also had a cold. I went to the bathroom and a blood clot came out like the size of a lemon, after that the bleeding was normal and I had no more cramps. I have to go back in 2 weeks to make sure the pregnancy has passed. But besides that my experience was very positive, it is sad that I had to sacrifice my child because I wasn't ready but I knew that I couldn't do it. My relationship with my boyfriend is actually stronger now, and I appreciate a lot more now. Feel free to ask me any questions I am more than happy to answer them . Good Luck .
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