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i am done. i have told him if he brings it home again, "we" are no more.
i am tired of this, but as long as he brings it to me, i am helpless.
its bigger than us, and has ruined us as a couple. i loved, wanted marriage and children, but this has wasted time, health, emotions, and most of all money.
my nose will never grow intact again, its forever.
i wish you luck, as well as myself.
please keep in touch, i could use the strength.
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honestly the first 2 or 3 weeks of it are horrible.
and where i was at there is no cigarette smoking which sucks horribly since thats my only other vice. so i just had to stick it out and deal with it.
i would wake up constantly shaking and sweaty.
i was a big time coke addict for 6 yrs...and it got to the point that i pretty much lost any sense i had. it took over me. i would go on 4 day binges and not sleep for 4 days then just collapse and wake up feeling crashed and paranoid.
honestly while was in rehab...bc when u try to stop cold turkey its very hard...we excercised, read, wrote a lot...like kept ourselves busy but also made sure we were reflecting on how each of us had gotten to where were at.
we learned about "triggers" its anything that could remind u of using. it could be a person who u did coke with. areas u spent many times using there, any paraphernelia...just anything in general that could be related to the drug itself or the drug usage. there gunna come along and u need to learn how to avoid those or walk away...and end any relationships with ppl who are part of a trigger.
also chew gum, orsuck on hard candy...sometimes as long as ur chewing it can subside some of the craving. as for ur hands...if ur jittering like crazy try taking a small object like a safety pin and just hold it in one hald and fiddle with that for a while...eventually the jitters go away...or try just putting them in ur pocket.
sorry if i make no sense...i've been prescribed xanax and ambien so i feel a lil disoriented lol. but i hope it helped a lil.
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So if anyone has any suggestions how they overcame the battle or any type of activities that I could do to alleviate the anxiety and (I would call) angry feelings I have, that would be more than appreciated. You would be helping out someone who really needs that help right now as I can't really turn to my friends, I think I've turned to them too many times in a drugged up stuper & I'd rather not involve them. If you're reading this, thanks. Sometimes we as people just need someone who cares.
Thanks again.
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Give yourself and your family the joy this X-Mas,a lot of us cannot....
Sincerely,(trying to make a difference to help myself)
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wasted time wrote:
just give up and get high life is too shortwhat can i say, look at the time, i feel your pain. i have burnt through my nose, but still do it. i can go without buying it, but my bf brings it home. i dont understand why his nose isnt damaged like mine, as he used longer and more.
i am done. i have told him if he brings it home again, "we" are no more.
i am tired of this, but as long as he brings it to me, i am helpless.
its bigger than us, and has ruined us as a couple. i loved, wanted marriage and children, but this has wasted time, health, emotions, and most of all money.
my nose will never grow intact again, its forever.
i wish you luck, as well as myself.
please keep in touch, i could use the strength.
I appreciate your feedback on that but I don't think that's very helpful if someone doesn't like being high and has been talking about having nose problems. Do you do cocaine?
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come back and post updates here if you can,
xo dekkers
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i dont sleep around, or anything. i just dont really think about it. people hook up all th time after the bars, i mean,..people have sex.
as long as ur safe from now on and dont put urself in danger (many horror stories in the uk and europe with escort ladies, especially the prettiest ones)...so if ur issues are emotional issues, etc, i really feel this is something you can liberate and curv out of your negative box.
ok, bye for now.
dekkers
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