Once again I have set time a side to quit. I go through this meaningless ritual in order to stop only to pick it up agian. It is a habit that has been my friend for a long time. It has come and gone through out the years, but I am on an 11 year stretch and I really want to stop. I have the regrets and on yes- I did abuse booze and I am able to have it in the house, for my husband, and it does not bother me. So why do I struggle with the pot? On a logical level, I know the pit falls. I see how I have wasted time and money. Right now my career in on hold - things a static position, only opportunites slip by because I am obssessed with my drug. I finally came semi-clean with my husband, but he does not know the extend and depth of my cravings. He can smoke and set it aside for months. Not me - all are nothing. So how do I stop this madness and finally say no? Will it happen by confusing my soul as the pot roast cooks for my family? I hope so. m >:(