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Ok where do i start, i started smoking pot when i was 15 due to peir presure. I started using weekends then evinings but soon it became my life all day every day. It has always made me paranoid but still i smoked it from morn to night. When i go a while without it and im only talking about running out at work and waiting till i get home if i can. I have left work to go get or simply not tured in coz i knew id run out. Pot is verry mentaly adictive to me coz physicly i should last a day or a few hours, But no not me!!! Iv never been a proud smoker never had the i smoke weed t-shirts that would be lame. Iv tried a few times to pack it in but in reality only could when i was forced to. Wich is when i noticed the physicle side of the addiction and yes it is real soo fu****g real. The first time was when i went to the states. I only went for 5 days and it was hard. I had the sh**s, the sweats, bad dreams, shakes, gaging and feeling sick. The second time was when i was imprisoned for two and a half years and guess what exactly the same only worst coz this was no choice of my own and no mere 5 days. I tried for 2 months to score inside but could not get wich Im so gteatfull of. However heroin was everywhere and they where willing to give it on tick, Im only glad i was one of the strong and refussed. By the time i was offered weed i had noticed the benifits i got inside for not using and never wanted to risk loosing what I had to comfort me. But I still did use moderaty and risked it all, so glad I didnt get caught. While I was inside and not using I felt good within myself and when I did stray I felt like s**t for days after. I promised myself and my family id never get hooked again, But.... here i am two years later and hooked agian. I told mysefl it will be ok once and a while and I did look forward to smoking it up on my release. How wrong was I... Well ive gone thru hell with it this time round it has done my head in iv felt like the last two years were not real Iv been paranoid, think im dying, mood swings, suacidal and alot more. 10 fold what i first went thru at 15, think its coz the weed is stronger than when I was in my teens. The truth is I was at my best when i was inside. I felt good, healthy and focused. My mind was clear and I knew what I wanted for myself and it aint good to say that no mater how true it is. Iv tried a few times since to kick it and havn't... but enough is enouth Im nearly 30 now and Iv been stoned nearly half my life. Iv been a week now drug free and im feeling good sure Im shaking and cant sleep craving and all the rest but Im heading where I want to Be. It feels good so good that im finding myself again. Already the bad thoughts and feelings are going again and I am comming back thru. I know I can do it Iv done it b4 and will again. This time its for me and the ones i love. Its hard yes and the cravings will always be. (well for at least two years i know) But its worth it in the end. If your trying to stop you need to stop trying and just STOP. Weed is more addictive in so many ways than ppl want to believe. I myself at one point thought I was in control and smoked coz i wantet to, yeah right!! Now I got to prove myself right and show I control what I do and not give in to the weed. Im Just gonna keep going its worth it in the end I know. If your reading this then you must want to quit or at least be thinking of quiting. You can do it and your heading In the right direction. Be strong and set goals reward yourself and know the reason why your stopping whatever it may be. If you say it aint physicly addictive your either full of if, havnt got a clue or verry lucky. The fun times of smoking weed do not last soon its a burden well if it takes a hold of you for sure. I mean are there any hard core tokers out there that have smoked for years and never thought of quiting. I think not...

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good post! I totally agree.
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