I am in a mess. anxiety or not?

Not great! Thought id made progress with the housing department, they rang him and arranged an intervies and he agreed to moving out with them. I was shocked-but then he discussed it with me. hes stated they were fobbing him off, and that I am too unstable to look after the children on my own. Ive just told mum all this - because this means its in his control , but shes saying that he want be able to pull the wool over theri eyes! I would have preferd just to move with the girls .it would have been quicker and a fresh start! Its hard!

Sorry, but this happened about 20 minutes ago-and im in my room really upset after having a good first day back at work!!!!!!! :-(

I just PM you! I don't understand the Fobbing part (don't know what it means! And they met with him THEN she called YOU to tell YOU what was mentioned at the meeting! She didn't say ANY of that to you, just him! So lets look at HIS record shall we? He is a lier, a cheat, a bully, a VERY mean person! So would he say stuff to you that isn't true?!! Of course he would! Would he tell you IF they threatened him that he better leave ASAP - if he knows what is good for him? NO WAY!!! So hang in there, be calm and precies and just ask what was said, and PLEASE tell me what FOB means?

Hi Dawn! I cant PM you for some reason( maybe its the snow!). Gilrs are still off school ad its still snowing! So Ive still not been to work. I wrote rivhard a letter telling him "thst although he has a job and responsibilities-hes not the only one, so could he tell mehis shifts " NO REPLY! All I know is from the girls. hes off tomorrow so i can go to work, but that all im getting.

Sixty pounds a month! He must think i wa bornm in a banana boat!, ( Mind yo i dont know if what i was born in was much better 8-| XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD !) Anyways, I slept all yesterday, all last night, and am now feeling really dizzy. Im glad ive had these 2 days though 2 get my heda around things!

My sister rang last night and shes right-we had discussed the possibllities and the probability off sorting things out years ago, but like her boyfriend said"if a man makes a woman that ill and still takes no head, watches them go through hell, and doesnt help.theres no recovering from that| That incident in Jne was just the tip of the iceberg!

Hmmm, im now going to go and ask for my clothes back from the police, wht are they still holding onto them? I need my jeans!

Hope you are good! becca is eating like a horse now, and is her happy self, Queen of the party. Alex has now made half an igloo and 4 snowmen. ! in each of the neighbours garden( shes funny!)

Okay Dawn! hes taking the keys and moving out tomorrow and/or Monday! Ive problems regarding whta to do about rent and council tax! Other than that, the girls seem happy and even a little bit excited!

Hi, Its been awhile! How are things going? I hope your doing well!! I wish you and your girls a wonderful Christmas holiday, and hope that the New Year brings you new beginnings and happiness!! Every now and then I wonder how your doing. Sounds like your finally free from him, good for you!! I wish you all the best!!

Hi Guest-yes, hres moved out. I would say its more peaceful here, and the girls are doing okay-EXCITED about christmas! Its still difficult, and in an odd way I still fear what ive done-but I know its silly!

Im probably a bit better than ive been in a long time/but its up and down as i am stripped with guilt, though the more i see that my girls are okay the more i want to do more for them.
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Anyway, its good news, i reckon though next few months are going t one a bit tough and i am scared of what will heappen.but slowly letting go of the puppet strings.

Have a great christmas yourself and an absolutely fantastic new year. i cant wait till 2011

Really glad to hear! I'm happy for you!! You deserve it, and so do your girls. It eliminates a lot of the stress and being overwhelmed and unsure of what to expect, when I was young there was nothing I wanted more then for my parents to divorce at times, would have helped me out at lot, so I'm glad your girls get that. Even though its hard, and it will be its understandable, it is for the best, and I'm sure your girls would agree.

I'm sure their okay, so don't feel guilty, its a lot better for them then to be stressed out and upset and hearing and seeing things they shouldn't be, now they can just be happy and be young girls. And now they will learn respect, which you didn't have before, but now you got that for yourself! Your showing them whats right and whats not, and how to be happy and strong, and not to take things from other people. So your doing all the right things!

You so deserve this!! So keep your head up high, because you have come so far!! Can you believe it? I am so so happy for you!!

And thank you! I cannot wait for 2011 either. Take good care of yourself.

Hi, its been a few months, I was just wondering how things were going. Hope all is well!

Hi Don,Guest and everyone who has spoken to me.  I think im doing better these din person very mean ays, Actually, despite the odd panic and the occasional tearful moments im much better.  God yup joined a really scary dating sight and met a few loonies that made me seem even better than normal ( whhoops) Despite the facts I cant sleep, seem to starve myself then gorge myself, have moments of pure doubt and fear and cant walk acorss a certain street without getting jelly legs i am much better...well ive been enjoying things more.

Sometimes i find it really hard, my girls are so habe) ppy ( or seem to me to be!)they want a step dad asap[.  b****r that, so replaced him (ex0 with a floppy eared bunny rabbit....jusnk nopr im normal and want to bin all medst wish I could sleep  Must admit i dont understand why i relive that incident of last year when there were so many in my own home, maybe it was because walking outside with my headphones on was another form of escape from then i dont know, sometimes i think im going crazy, sometimes i think im finr and want to bin all meds.
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Anyway, starting to look forward to things even get excited sometimes, but being excited makes me a little wairy too so try and stop thatr here
police still annoy me though, bloody hypocrits nicked my jeans...sorry my keyboard is broken
Last week my mum had her first sleepover and we got on-which is somewhat of a miracle.ep

i guess i should go get some sleep.  Im up in 4 hours  or maybe i should just go do the housework....anyway Dawn Guest and others, some of my posts from years back make me cringe so bad///tale care people and look after yourselves!!!

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