The longer you stay with him the more he will tempt you with drink and he will get back to his regular self thinking "she's just crying wolf" The unfortunate thing is you have missed SO much time with the application coming back. So it's up to you wether you want a fresh start with no walls hanging on to the screams and all the bad nightmares!!!
I wanted an Old English Sheepdog too!!!! o.O I even left out a pet book once with one circled and my writing is below it saying "I would REALLY REALLY like one of these for Christmas!!" I didn't get one!!!
You are both living seperate lives, what is the difference if you are living in different places? Nada!!! So think of it that way! You wont be his slave, you can have friends over! You wont be nervous, and the girls can be free of worry! I KNOW!!! That sense of dread! And let me tell you - as a survivor of violence - it affects you forever! Just like you said you and Nat sitting on top of the stairs shaking! That's EXACTLY what my sister and I used to do!! I used to hold her hand and tell her "It's OK!" I still to this day - If I hear a scream or a slamming door I could fall to my knees with terror! I am MORTIFIED of the dark for the same reason, those yells in the middle of the night! My mom screaming for me to help her!!!! WTF!!!!!!? :-S So IF you can't do it for you Katy you HAVE to do it for the girls!!!
I wanted an Old English Sheepdog too!!!! o.O I even left out a pet book once with one circled and my writing is below it saying "I would REALLY REALLY like one of these for Christmas!!" I didn't get one!!!
You are both living seperate lives, what is the difference if you are living in different places? Nada!!! So think of it that way! You wont be his slave, you can have friends over! You wont be nervous, and the girls can be free of worry! I KNOW!!! That sense of dread! And let me tell you - as a survivor of violence - it affects you forever! Just like you said you and Nat sitting on top of the stairs shaking! That's EXACTLY what my sister and I used to do!! I used to hold her hand and tell her "It's OK!" I still to this day - If I hear a scream or a slamming door I could fall to my knees with terror! I am MORTIFIED of the dark for the same reason, those yells in the middle of the night! My mom screaming for me to help her!!!! WTF!!!!!!? :-S So IF you can't do it for you Katy you HAVE to do it for the girls!!!
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Hi dawn-thanks for the reply!!!!!Thats just it though-we dont fight like that. We dont fight like my mum and dad.
Ok, anyway, terrified :-S Ive not been feeling well, and I looked down-just before getting up this morning. One of my legs has gone completely blue-VEINS everywhere, and the mega varicose vein has sunken in. The odd thing is they dont hurt like normal-just my back is sore. so if this gets worse Im going of to casualty. i totally paniced looking down. Sorry-but Ive not seen anything like this before.Its like something out of Frankenstein, ive seen VVs too, but these are in set, my entire leg has ogne blue. I asked previos if this could be treated, and the doctor previous had asked do you bleed out, do you have a rash ( well now I do -yes-my entire leg has gone blue)Icant remeber the other thing on her list, but this is ridiculous. Im in pure panic and cold is still hanging around like him ha ha!!1
Right-Dawn -the way I see it-is give him a wake up call.Im going to get myself totally clean-may loose a leg on the way-shouldnt even joke about that one-then sign his bloddy parental rights form. its like I stated before, his name is on the birth certificate, He is therir biological father-i whats the problem and the children adore him-so why would I hurt them more? I said that to him last night-he wasnt impressed-I don care. Im going to cry-my leg looks bad-Im scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, anyway, terrified :-S Ive not been feeling well, and I looked down-just before getting up this morning. One of my legs has gone completely blue-VEINS everywhere, and the mega varicose vein has sunken in. The odd thing is they dont hurt like normal-just my back is sore. so if this gets worse Im going of to casualty. i totally paniced looking down. Sorry-but Ive not seen anything like this before.Its like something out of Frankenstein, ive seen VVs too, but these are in set, my entire leg has ogne blue. I asked previos if this could be treated, and the doctor previous had asked do you bleed out, do you have a rash ( well now I do -yes-my entire leg has gone blue)Icant remeber the other thing on her list, but this is ridiculous. Im in pure panic and cold is still hanging around like him ha ha!!1
Right-Dawn -the way I see it-is give him a wake up call.Im going to get myself totally clean-may loose a leg on the way-shouldnt even joke about that one-then sign his bloddy parental rights form. its like I stated before, his name is on the birth certificate, He is therir biological father-i whats the problem and the children adore him-so why would I hurt them more? I said that to him last night-he wasnt impressed-I don care. Im going to cry-my leg looks bad-Im scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Calmed. Thinking about Old english sheepdogs-you know, you dont see many of them anymore-whrer are they? ven bearded collies seem a rarity ( if theres such a word. I ate tonights teas, last night. IM on my routine -period over-its safe to eat, and if youdont eat i die thing. Then that passes, its like okay, ive eaten enough to feed a zoo of prisoners for theri life sentence, so starve for a little whileI know its irrational behaviour. I know this, and sometimes when I get really anxious I reach for the old laxatives. They were my best frined for about 2 years . Then the strange thing was-i told my GP about it, and when I did ( and shame on me) I totally cried myself stupid-thinking about how mad I was- then sorted it out myself-why i cant do that with alcohol, i do not know, maybe as its a longer term addicition-if you understand?
Its funny, its as though im in total denial about my age, so not getting hair cut, but looking at old photots think I look better with shorter hair, I cant do it. Long hair is like my security blanket, and its something to twist and play with when bored or tired.
Do you know what Dwn? I had this frinedship when I was a little girl, with a girl, and I can honestly say we just clicked ( as friends) before you thin k anything different. We got on really really well, but she only stayed in teh town for about a month. she used to come to my house every day, and we talked and played all the time, I remeber her well, and even though I dont fully remeber her name(which in my mind is absurd) I remeber the experience wel> It was weird -like we were related, as though we could read each others minds, we laughed togethr well) Ill never know what happened to her, not ever but at least I have the memory
Lol i tried on alexs school trousers for a laugh. Thy fit, fly, hips and everything-no wonder they dont fit her. They are aged 11, They fit me on the leg, everywhere-thats mad. I must be a smout!!!
I dont want to even mention him , or my situation anymore, its time waisting-boring and consuming.I wonder if my leg is going to fall off-bloody well looks as though it is :-S
I tol dmy mother about flat getting upgraded, -she got all excited, and started to tell me to do this and that. And to get Bon Bon the cat , flu jabbed abd kick him out. 9 I got angry) Bon Bon is my pal, honestly -she doesnt get it, My cat is scared of the wind, and he want go out-given the choice.Hes a well trained flat cat and a big fat teddy. hes the colour of fudge and he purrs spledidly when you give hi m a proper cuddle, YOu curly your body round him and he gets so content by the warmth, that he purrs loud and proper. its brill!!!!I love that contentment, though my moggie eats more than I do in a day. ive thought about buying a cat lead and aking him walks, but he want go outside.Ive left the forn t doror open so many times and he runds in the opposite direction, and then , like last night, he hid amongst the cushions in our sofa..i was"Bn Bon-where are you, everytime I mentioned his name he purred loudly. Sorry I am now a total animal lover-that is sorry but crabs and snakes give me the neeebeee jeeeebeeees, especially pythons.
I dont know if you get that programme in canada-the one about the rt catchers? God Ill never forget, Bob ( my ex sister in laws dad) telling me about killing a rat down his toilet , in the middle of the night. i remeber asking him...nah-you must have been hallucinating or something? he was like -Katy it was reall, and therer big bastards and if you ever get one , killl it. Right well there is a certain rat Id liove to kill but its oversized!!!!!!!Right-i just felt like blethering.Im going to go now, Hope youre well,, and hear from you soon, take care, Katy
Its funny, its as though im in total denial about my age, so not getting hair cut, but looking at old photots think I look better with shorter hair, I cant do it. Long hair is like my security blanket, and its something to twist and play with when bored or tired.
Do you know what Dwn? I had this frinedship when I was a little girl, with a girl, and I can honestly say we just clicked ( as friends) before you thin k anything different. We got on really really well, but she only stayed in teh town for about a month. she used to come to my house every day, and we talked and played all the time, I remeber her well, and even though I dont fully remeber her name(which in my mind is absurd) I remeber the experience wel> It was weird -like we were related, as though we could read each others minds, we laughed togethr well) Ill never know what happened to her, not ever but at least I have the memory
Lol i tried on alexs school trousers for a laugh. Thy fit, fly, hips and everything-no wonder they dont fit her. They are aged 11, They fit me on the leg, everywhere-thats mad. I must be a smout!!!
I dont want to even mention him , or my situation anymore, its time waisting-boring and consuming.I wonder if my leg is going to fall off-bloody well looks as though it is :-S
I tol dmy mother about flat getting upgraded, -she got all excited, and started to tell me to do this and that. And to get Bon Bon the cat , flu jabbed abd kick him out. 9 I got angry) Bon Bon is my pal, honestly -she doesnt get it, My cat is scared of the wind, and he want go out-given the choice.Hes a well trained flat cat and a big fat teddy. hes the colour of fudge and he purrs spledidly when you give hi m a proper cuddle, YOu curly your body round him and he gets so content by the warmth, that he purrs loud and proper. its brill!!!!I love that contentment, though my moggie eats more than I do in a day. ive thought about buying a cat lead and aking him walks, but he want go outside.Ive left the forn t doror open so many times and he runds in the opposite direction, and then , like last night, he hid amongst the cushions in our sofa..i was"Bn Bon-where are you, everytime I mentioned his name he purred loudly. Sorry I am now a total animal lover-that is sorry but crabs and snakes give me the neeebeee jeeeebeeees, especially pythons.
I dont know if you get that programme in canada-the one about the rt catchers? God Ill never forget, Bob ( my ex sister in laws dad) telling me about killing a rat down his toilet , in the middle of the night. i remeber asking him...nah-you must have been hallucinating or something? he was like -Katy it was reall, and therer big bastards and if you ever get one , killl it. Right well there is a certain rat Id liove to kill but its oversized!!!!!!!Right-i just felt like blethering.Im going to go now, Hope youre well,, and hear from you soon, take care, Katy
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Sorry, my point was, -you remind me of that frined, Yo utotaly get me, even if I do blether about ME all the time.
Im gonna go for a bath, its 130pm, kids are playing with their bratz, and Ive had half a yorlie fro breakfast/lunchHmm- my eldest is an all or nothing girl. She wanted a whole yorkie bar..buh!!!
My foot is a mess, ive a deformed toe, a trigger toe apparently, my lirttle toe has puffed up , and if you ask me the podiatrist people have made a nob hob job of it, all my toes curl into the one point and as I was twisting my feet trying to get my circulation back on the move, My foot doesnt move like my other one, its no wonder I keep tripping uo as my big ote doesnt move without great difficulty and sometimes i tip on it. a ppure lazy toe, to go with my lazy eye, my lazy brain, and my lazy ways, right god, im on .....Hmmm, I forgot to take citalopram last night, and the spots on my nose seem to be sinking, and nose is less stuffy, Maybe im allergic to the medicatin?Also , I cant be bothered falising my white face anymore, so not bothering with make up, fake tan or anything, just deciding to be clean
I dont know though-im feeling in on myself-your othe only place i feel like talking too. I remeber my doc upping my does on this stuff , when I was on 30mgs I was like a clown with a permanent smile-theres a photo of me at work, and I look completely pissed-though I wasnt I was just happy on 30mgs of citalopram.i dont get that from 20-in fact I dont feel any different-actually I do, my stomach doesnt sinkin on itself like it used to and I manage things and I do not shout..Ouch my foot , going for my bath, Im just talking today...I dont know- I feel like talking, but not with him.Right-going for bath. hope your all right and Ive not drained you, take care, Katy
Im gonna go for a bath, its 130pm, kids are playing with their bratz, and Ive had half a yorlie fro breakfast/lunchHmm- my eldest is an all or nothing girl. She wanted a whole yorkie bar..buh!!!
My foot is a mess, ive a deformed toe, a trigger toe apparently, my lirttle toe has puffed up , and if you ask me the podiatrist people have made a nob hob job of it, all my toes curl into the one point and as I was twisting my feet trying to get my circulation back on the move, My foot doesnt move like my other one, its no wonder I keep tripping uo as my big ote doesnt move without great difficulty and sometimes i tip on it. a ppure lazy toe, to go with my lazy eye, my lazy brain, and my lazy ways, right god, im on .....Hmmm, I forgot to take citalopram last night, and the spots on my nose seem to be sinking, and nose is less stuffy, Maybe im allergic to the medicatin?Also , I cant be bothered falising my white face anymore, so not bothering with make up, fake tan or anything, just deciding to be clean
I dont know though-im feeling in on myself-your othe only place i feel like talking too. I remeber my doc upping my does on this stuff , when I was on 30mgs I was like a clown with a permanent smile-theres a photo of me at work, and I look completely pissed-though I wasnt I was just happy on 30mgs of citalopram.i dont get that from 20-in fact I dont feel any different-actually I do, my stomach doesnt sinkin on itself like it used to and I manage things and I do not shout..Ouch my foot , going for my bath, Im just talking today...I dont know- I feel like talking, but not with him.Right-going for bath. hope your all right and Ive not drained you, take care, Katy
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This just isnt funny :-S 8-| I felt like I had a tampoon hanging down, and something doesnt feel right. I wonder if thats why my right leg has gone blue. heck.(maybe Im imagining it-but something feels different). then i remebered what I did to myself last night.I dont even know why-it was as though I was a different person. This freaked me.i was in the bath and thinking and wondering why my wrist hurt..then looked.oh yup! I remebr now-i had been biting my armsWhat a weird oooooooo?I think maybe I enjoy pain-maybe that why im a wall, hanging around here
I dont know what to do, as my sinus pain feels a bit better, and nose has shrunk, I definately think that sinus irritation is from citalopram, ut if I dont take taht stuff im mad!!! Lol -I was thinking last night-maybe Ill see this Psychiatritrist, and he could just hospitalise me for a week, while my flat gets upgraded, and then kick psycho chops out!!!!Thatd be good, then I dont have to do any hard work...actually that s al ie, Going to start on guttin this place. i just cant be harsh enough. i still hold onto my girls first shoes, and their 1st birthday dresses, and their mososes basket and things like that. in fact the only baby thing I got rid of was their cot, but hey gosh, neither of them slept in thaat useless contaption, who would want to sleep behind bars anyway??????????/////You were brn,,,,,thats a crime???????????????????????????///Maybe im just a hypocontriact, but alsio dodgy mole on arm, and itchy cyst between boobs, and Im worried!!!Ok OK, ill not deliberately miss my medicine tonight, I reckon I still need it-grrrrrrrrrr!!!!Sorry-but I am an idiotGoing for a lie down , then take kids to the shop and invest on black bin linners to get started on throwing things out. i guess, whatever happens, I guess throwing things out-wil help!!!
Oh , I asked him why???and what for? about signing papers? Is he going to try an get custody of the children?????that my main worry!!! I mean looka t what has just happened to my friend? I would even happily accept a joint aggreement( no I would not) but even if, like my housing officer had stated he could be re housed near by, it would work., and when the kids got bored they could pop o along to daddys just by phoningetc. That doesnt sound so bad. Why canrt he just do that?????????????????????????? What is wrong with my bottom-this is not right. Going to ring mum..shell know!
I dont know what to do, as my sinus pain feels a bit better, and nose has shrunk, I definately think that sinus irritation is from citalopram, ut if I dont take taht stuff im mad!!! Lol -I was thinking last night-maybe Ill see this Psychiatritrist, and he could just hospitalise me for a week, while my flat gets upgraded, and then kick psycho chops out!!!!Thatd be good, then I dont have to do any hard work...actually that s al ie, Going to start on guttin this place. i just cant be harsh enough. i still hold onto my girls first shoes, and their 1st birthday dresses, and their mososes basket and things like that. in fact the only baby thing I got rid of was their cot, but hey gosh, neither of them slept in thaat useless contaption, who would want to sleep behind bars anyway??????????/////You were brn,,,,,thats a crime???????????????????????????///Maybe im just a hypocontriact, but alsio dodgy mole on arm, and itchy cyst between boobs, and Im worried!!!Ok OK, ill not deliberately miss my medicine tonight, I reckon I still need it-grrrrrrrrrr!!!!Sorry-but I am an idiotGoing for a lie down , then take kids to the shop and invest on black bin linners to get started on throwing things out. i guess, whatever happens, I guess throwing things out-wil help!!!
Oh , I asked him why???and what for? about signing papers? Is he going to try an get custody of the children?????that my main worry!!! I mean looka t what has just happened to my friend? I would even happily accept a joint aggreement( no I would not) but even if, like my housing officer had stated he could be re housed near by, it would work., and when the kids got bored they could pop o along to daddys just by phoningetc. That doesnt sound so bad. Why canrt he just do that?????????????????????????? What is wrong with my bottom-this is not right. Going to ring mum..shell know!
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Anyway, what is BPH i-finally some sense of fairness-men have probs down below tooAnyway, that was bizarre-went into total panic PROLAPSEIve never felt so much sympathy for my mum. i was sitting ---sh*t-what if its prolapse-anyway, read up on all that stuff, and thought eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! honestly, nausea came over me, as though I was about to vomit. Still feeling a bit anxious about that stuff-anyway, How the hell do you do these Kegel exercises, I could never do them whne I wa sexpecting and still cant now! Ive always had a weak bladde, I remeber once haven been at a party when alex was a baby, I had 2 walk 3 miles home in the dark, and I had drunk 2pints.....I needed the lou, but as I was wearing a long black dress, I couldnt do that crouch in the bushes thing...Ive never been able to do that either, and then I got to my mothers front door,,,,I was way beyond it-delighted id made it home, and wow, low and behold mum answered the door and (No joke) I had peed her porche, my black dress, and OmG-Im still laughing about that one.Imagine answering the door to your 25 year old daighter peaing your doorstep(cant believe I just shared that with you) Sorry, Illl regret that laterIm having a Big pants prolapse day 8-| ehmmmmmmmmmmmmmm cough cough,,,,nope Im okay
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Dawn-your going to be annoyed with me. On Friday night, my nose pain got so bad, so instead of taking a painkiller, I continued to drink, and didnt take citalopram.I remeber thinking(Im sure its making me worse)Last night, I never took it, my ears are releasing loads of liquid, and my nose is lss swollen and less painful, I can feel that gut ache (as if something failry bad has happened-but nothing new there)There are 2 big buts though. One is I started to bite my skin, pinch and bragb and just wanted tohurt myself-both nights, one on booze, one not on booze.
Ive decided to go back to my doc about my stupidooo toeas my baby toe has started to miss shape and entire foot is sore-Becc, lost her first babytooth last night-she has a big gap and so proud of it. Also feel bruised, particularly on my armtheres nothing there but freeckles.
I do feel slowed down today, and wonder if I should just go back on them-I honestly was thinking though, that if I were to get the flu Id die as I couldnt breathe well. Mind you this morning woke up with my mouth openas i still cant breathMy nose has difficulty come down in sixe, ( although as I have a big snout its not come down that uch)I don tknow what to do? Is citalopram makin gme worse???? I know it has an afterlife of 35 hours or something, soIam just out that zone nowMaybe its time for me to wean of them, and my body is telling me soI dont know. I hope your all right-I havent heard from you.Im going to go for a sleep and think what I feel is best.I never realised how sore it was untilI stopped, and its definately the citalopram that caused it as the pai is subsiding
Ive decided to go back to my doc about my stupidooo toeas my baby toe has started to miss shape and entire foot is sore-Becc, lost her first babytooth last night-she has a big gap and so proud of it. Also feel bruised, particularly on my armtheres nothing there but freeckles.
I do feel slowed down today, and wonder if I should just go back on them-I honestly was thinking though, that if I were to get the flu Id die as I couldnt breathe well. Mind you this morning woke up with my mouth openas i still cant breathMy nose has difficulty come down in sixe, ( although as I have a big snout its not come down that uch)I don tknow what to do? Is citalopram makin gme worse???? I know it has an afterlife of 35 hours or something, soIam just out that zone nowMaybe its time for me to wean of them, and my body is telling me soI dont know. I hope your all right-I havent heard from you.Im going to go for a sleep and think what I feel is best.I never realised how sore it was untilI stopped, and its definately the citalopram that caused it as the pai is subsiding
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This isnt going to work. So far Ive yelled my head off-lost it completely. Cried for ages and ow feel a bit sick and jaded so I duess i need that pill-Ill just have to make do with the sinus trouble.
My daughter has motivated me now -to never go on the booze again!!!!
feeling reallly hot and its raining here, and muffled head.
Dawn, I have a tiny cyst and its changed colour and mw +panic!!!!!Do you think I have BpD-or is this in my head? Omg-no pun intenteded
Hope your all right.
Ive got to go to the shops , invest on black bin linners aso i can start this place.
Brcca lost her first tooth lasy night . HOnestly, its the cutest , most perfect baby tooth you have ever seen. She is really proud of the gap in her mouth. I get a little squeamish when it comes to wobbily teeth, and nerves...You know how your nerves hang out when you loose a tooth.....its like that grinding noise..like scraping noises and chalk on a black noard scarpe...ok ive gone all nervous now---what a silly billy I am
My daughter has motivated me now -to never go on the booze again!!!!
feeling reallly hot and its raining here, and muffled head.
Dawn, I have a tiny cyst and its changed colour and mw +panic!!!!!Do you think I have BpD-or is this in my head? Omg-no pun intenteded
Hope your all right.
Ive got to go to the shops , invest on black bin linners aso i can start this place.
Brcca lost her first tooth lasy night . HOnestly, its the cutest , most perfect baby tooth you have ever seen. She is really proud of the gap in her mouth. I get a little squeamish when it comes to wobbily teeth, and nerves...You know how your nerves hang out when you loose a tooth.....its like that grinding noise..like scraping noises and chalk on a black noard scarpe...ok ive gone all nervous now---what a silly billy I am
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Gosh-never again. I got stuck, swang from a tree, and then my neighbour came out and rescued me-took my income support claim to the post ofice, as sson as he left I was stuck again, and some other guy came out and took me home. Ive been out for ages cuddling the same tree, crying, thenlaughing, not sure what to make of myslef, except I am definately not coming of citalopram even if my nose feels like its being yanked in a vice. My stomach is all over the place ...in fact, im sure i left it on the road.....Im now crying-why cant I just be normal?????Sorry dawn, im just going to give myself a row.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU SILLLY COW?????? (THIS IS TO ME NOT YOU DAWN-SO DONT TAKE IT ALL WRONG_
You have 2 children to bring up-they need you. Thats enough. No more nonsense from me, squeaky clean....grrrr!
WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU SILLLY COW?????? (THIS IS TO ME NOT YOU DAWN-SO DONT TAKE IT ALL WRONG_
You have 2 children to bring up-they need you. Thats enough. No more nonsense from me, squeaky clean....grrrr!
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Hi dawn-i get the imperession ive offended you in someway, or youve missunderstood my posts, or something really dreadful has happened-or your just not well, or fed up with me?????????? Anyways, it doesnt matter, I shall list everything and give it to the nurse on wednesday. Im not well myself Im having the skits every half hour, and feel really drained.
I just feel empty ( probably cause its all fallen out my rear end!)
I am just not me, anymore , iam dangling on a fine thread, and if anything else bad happens, god knows what I might do. Sorry -I do go on, its like my mum says "You can be so over the top"...but yes not feeling great, thinking about phoning in tomorrow. I took my medication tonight, and its making me sweat and nose looks huge!!!Im sad, and longing for someone just to love me for wo I am!
The strange thing, when I ad children I remeber my parents intial reaction "shes too young"-"hes non-commited" and so on, bt with them Im a completely different person. I am their example, their cuddles , their future, I love my children!
iam curious though, my eldest is nine and complaining of boob pain.She stated that when she goes wimming she has a chest, and she perspires a bit-is this the start of pubessence? Alex has always given me an extra strenght-shes sunlight in your hair, shes healthy , pretty and clever! i adore her. becca-she is different but an absolute marvel.
Anyways, hope your ok and nothing has upset you or nothing bad has happened. Hope your ok, take care, Katy.
Ps, im listing my symptoms to take to the nurse...In away, i want katy back even if she did feel empty all the time, or low on herself , Katy still has a personality even if it means doing one thing to wreck another! I remeber shouting at my mum and siste"you cant change me, I am what I am"
I just feel empty ( probably cause its all fallen out my rear end!)
I am just not me, anymore , iam dangling on a fine thread, and if anything else bad happens, god knows what I might do. Sorry -I do go on, its like my mum says "You can be so over the top"...but yes not feeling great, thinking about phoning in tomorrow. I took my medication tonight, and its making me sweat and nose looks huge!!!Im sad, and longing for someone just to love me for wo I am!
The strange thing, when I ad children I remeber my parents intial reaction "shes too young"-"hes non-commited" and so on, bt with them Im a completely different person. I am their example, their cuddles , their future, I love my children!
iam curious though, my eldest is nine and complaining of boob pain.She stated that when she goes wimming she has a chest, and she perspires a bit-is this the start of pubessence? Alex has always given me an extra strenght-shes sunlight in your hair, shes healthy , pretty and clever! i adore her. becca-she is different but an absolute marvel.
Anyways, hope your ok and nothing has upset you or nothing bad has happened. Hope your ok, take care, Katy.
Ps, im listing my symptoms to take to the nurse...In away, i want katy back even if she did feel empty all the time, or low on herself , Katy still has a personality even if it means doing one thing to wreck another! I remeber shouting at my mum and siste"you cant change me, I am what I am"
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You might be having a reaction to citalopram - below find the reactions and the percentage of patients that have experienced them you should find them interesting - as they are virtually everything you are experiencing thus the signs of an allergic reaction
http://www.druglib.com/druginfo/celexa/side-effects_adverse-reactions/
Katy I don't know what to say! I want you to get some immediate help!!!!! This is beyong some drinks nurse! You aren't stopping drinking! And you have ALL these other things going on! I fear for you and your kids! Your posts have been VERY rambily!!! And All I can say is go to an emergency department! I really don't know what else to say Katy! You haven't taken my advice in the past, so I don't know how else for you to listen to me and get some help! EVEN if you are in a state and have to call the ambulance then so be it!!! You need to be assessed and they need to get to the bottom of it! I think you are having a nervous breakdown!! Or some sort of mania! I hope you listen to me Katy! I am REALLY worried! So PLEASE get some help, don't email me tommorrow and tell me you ok now etc. etc.! So please get some help1!!
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Katy I don't know what to say! I want you to get some immediate help!!!!! This is beyong some drinks nurse! You aren't stopping drinking! And you have ALL these other things going on! I fear for you and your kids! Your posts have been VERY rambily!!! And All I can say is go to an emergency department! I really don't know what else to say Katy! You haven't taken my advice in the past, so I don't know how else for you to listen to me and get some help! EVEN if you are in a state and have to call the ambulance then so be it!!! You need to be assessed and they need to get to the bottom of it! I think you are having a nervous breakdown!! Or some sort of mania! I hope you listen to me Katy! I am REALLY worried! So PLEASE get some help, don't email me tommorrow and tell me you ok now etc. etc.! So please get some help1!!
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Hi Dawn-Im not going to send you an email and tell you Im fine. im not. I did my shift today at work, and got a 8- percent result from the mysterious shopper. things there semm a bit odd, sometimes I feel like they are really watching me in that place. So that was good news,
I dont know , I actually personaally think Ive had a tummy bug , as I was on the lou so much last night that, we ran out of lou roll 8-| Okay, shift went fine, but then right at the end, one of my colleagues asked how I was as I had complained to her that I was feeling vomit sick,,,as I am feeling like I am going to vom!!As soon as I started rambling about this situation , I can honestly the say the shop was spinning , and I had to get out before i was sick everywhere....managed to to throw up and made it to the stairs, then they were moving , wobbiling about , I started to panic and pins and needles, then managed to get to a shop , bought lucozade, then got to the bus. Home now, and I am unsure what to do-as Ive calmed and I feel ok. I also took citalopram last night, and it was out of a different box to the one I had taken before-I wonder if the pills I had are different Citalopram pills are meant to be oval -in this packt there round.
Also my sinuses are blocking up again , and I think its part of whatever is going on , and not enough oxygen is getting in...Honestly my face goes bright red and its total panic. ..Im working tom morrow and i dont want to let down my colleagues and my children need me. Its not like Ive colapsed.So im noyt that bad-its not life or death!
I dont know , I actually personaally think Ive had a tummy bug , as I was on the lou so much last night that, we ran out of lou roll 8-| Okay, shift went fine, but then right at the end, one of my colleagues asked how I was as I had complained to her that I was feeling vomit sick,,,as I am feeling like I am going to vom!!As soon as I started rambling about this situation , I can honestly the say the shop was spinning , and I had to get out before i was sick everywhere....managed to to throw up and made it to the stairs, then they were moving , wobbiling about , I started to panic and pins and needles, then managed to get to a shop , bought lucozade, then got to the bus. Home now, and I am unsure what to do-as Ive calmed and I feel ok. I also took citalopram last night, and it was out of a different box to the one I had taken before-I wonder if the pills I had are different Citalopram pills are meant to be oval -in this packt there round.
Also my sinuses are blocking up again , and I think its part of whatever is going on , and not enough oxygen is getting in...Honestly my face goes bright red and its total panic. ..Im working tom morrow and i dont want to let down my colleagues and my children need me. Its not like Ive colapsed.So im noyt that bad-its not life or death!
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Hi dawn-Im really sorry for not seeking imeediate help ( as you stated I should).Please dont fall out with me over it-you are/have been a true life support for me.
On Wednesday i see the drinks nurse- and I am hoping she can maybe help. It all honesty, Im not going to get better( I dont think , until the deed has been done!) Until Ive moved or hes moved. Either way, i will make it happen-Im just scared of the long term consequences , for my children. They adore daddy-he is playful and doesnt get driven to distraction ( as I do!)
Anyway, I got 80 percent for my mystery shopper experience, and apparently its the best or 2nd best in Scotland, i am well pleased-but I am useless on mens clothes-so very surprised! Its kept me going today , and made me think i want to feel well tomorrow-not ill. The dizzy sspelss are stilll up on me though, and yes, if after 3 days of not drinking , I will go to a and e, as Ive had whatever for months.
Becca and I had a great time tonight, lplaying doctors-but it was a vet I needed not a doctor , for I was a pig spreading wine flu(whoops!) Im eant swine flu!
I know I joke a bit too something, anyway, thats my deal ( if you will ) ?????If I have anoter latch on to the tree, lampost, Ill just ring 999 or my doc and get them to fetch me. (Ive got to say though, i was a bit peeved that the mystery person guesed my age) b****r-thought I was maybe late 20s looking, but nope "shes in her thirties" Ouch!
! week on wednesday and this flat is getting the treatment-Ive not even started to ditch rubbish -and you know who I mean. anyway, I know Ive peeved you a little , I dont mean to I guess I like being honest with you-no matter what! Must go..Take care,
On Wednesday i see the drinks nurse- and I am hoping she can maybe help. It all honesty, Im not going to get better( I dont think , until the deed has been done!) Until Ive moved or hes moved. Either way, i will make it happen-Im just scared of the long term consequences , for my children. They adore daddy-he is playful and doesnt get driven to distraction ( as I do!)
Anyway, I got 80 percent for my mystery shopper experience, and apparently its the best or 2nd best in Scotland, i am well pleased-but I am useless on mens clothes-so very surprised! Its kept me going today , and made me think i want to feel well tomorrow-not ill. The dizzy sspelss are stilll up on me though, and yes, if after 3 days of not drinking , I will go to a and e, as Ive had whatever for months.
Becca and I had a great time tonight, lplaying doctors-but it was a vet I needed not a doctor , for I was a pig spreading wine flu(whoops!) Im eant swine flu!
I know I joke a bit too something, anyway, thats my deal ( if you will ) ?????If I have anoter latch on to the tree, lampost, Ill just ring 999 or my doc and get them to fetch me. (Ive got to say though, i was a bit peeved that the mystery person guesed my age) b****r-thought I was maybe late 20s looking, but nope "shes in her thirties" Ouch!
! week on wednesday and this flat is getting the treatment-Ive not even started to ditch rubbish -and you know who I mean. anyway, I know Ive peeved you a little , I dont mean to I guess I like being honest with you-no matter what! Must go..Take care,
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Hi Katy: I'm not peeved hon, I'm just worried, when you start rambiling I get VERY nervous! You have to admit Katy there is DEFINITELY something physical going on with you? this isn't all about panic and depression! This is GLOBAL! As in your entire body is in a bad state, you are DEFINITELY allergic to soemthing, it could be the Citalopram, did you look at the symptoms? I was pretty shocked actually! EVERYONE of the matched your symptoms!
Did I tell you I too have a wonky toe and foot?!!!! o.O I was born with a deformed foot and hammertoes, I had to have surgery on them when I was 21! They found 5 extra bones in my foot - which now matches up with this syndrome they've diagnosed me with ! I tell ya the more I find out about you, it's like talking to ME!!! Weird heh? Other than the fact that I would actually LISTEN to myself!!!! ;-) XD What's going on with the housing situation?
Did I tell you I too have a wonky toe and foot?!!!! o.O I was born with a deformed foot and hammertoes, I had to have surgery on them when I was 21! They found 5 extra bones in my foot - which now matches up with this syndrome they've diagnosed me with ! I tell ya the more I find out about you, it's like talking to ME!!! Weird heh? Other than the fact that I would actually LISTEN to myself!!!! ;-) XD What's going on with the housing situation?
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