Ok - so I relapsed on the Oxy. I don't know if you have read my previous post, but I was on about 200mgs a day of Oxy for about a year. I decided to get off, did a 4 day suboxone taper, and was good for about 2 months. I was trying my hardest to fill in the voids in my life without the pills. That was by far the hardest part. I wasn't bad at all with the Withdrawals - which I had bad in the past without oxy. The subs for me were great. I just couldn't stay head strong as long as I thought. A friend and I convinced each other that we could do a little dope and be ok. Sure enough here I am 4 months later with the same problem. f***in junkie again. Actually I think I had been using more this second time around. It is just a stupid stupid thing that I did getting back in this garbage. Anyways.......
Monday I got back on the Subs. Here's where I am with them so far
Monday - 8mgs AM - 4mgs PM
Tuesday - 4mgs AM - 4mgs PM
Wednesday - nothing yet, but probably gonna go with 2 mgs
Thursday - hoping for 1 or 2 mgs all day
Friday - going to be the first day clean.
I am hoping this is as easy as it was last time. I will keep posting as the days go on about how this is coming for me. Any comments or questions much appreciated. Thanks guys
Monday I got back on the Subs. Here's where I am with them so far
Monday - 8mgs AM - 4mgs PM
Tuesday - 4mgs AM - 4mgs PM
Wednesday - nothing yet, but probably gonna go with 2 mgs
Thursday - hoping for 1 or 2 mgs all day
Friday - going to be the first day clean.
I am hoping this is as easy as it was last time. I will keep posting as the days go on about how this is coming for me. Any comments or questions much appreciated. Thanks guys
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So today is Day 4. I ended up not taking anything yesterday. And so far today nothing. I am definitely back to my sweaty ways, but other than that my symptoms are managable. I really haven't eaten too much - like 3 pieces of pizza since sunday - ouch now that I think about it, I really haven't eaten anything....But I slept fine last night.
Yesterday I spent so much time on here reading about people's experiences. I am soo shocked to see the amount of NEGATIVE posts on here about Suboxone. It seems to me like everyone who was/is on it for months and months has a terrible time getting off. Now I know it would be stupid for me to say that the four day taper worked for me, seeing as though how I got back on the drugs two short months later. But I honestly feel that the best way for me to kick my habit is to kick the physical in the butt with the subs for a couple of days (normally my oxy W/d's would last about 4 days) and then work on the mental. I know I need to either talk to somebody about it, or go to NA or something. Last time I thought I could do it myself, which was obviously retarded.
BUT - I find it really hard to believe that there are not more people out there with success stories. I am going to keep posting here as I go through this period in my life, again....just for people out there who need some positive re-enforcement. I HAVE KICKED OXY'S BEFORE AND i AM DOING IT AGAIN RIGHT NOW. I am going on vacation a week from today, so hopefully by then I will feel pretty close to normal again. I can't imagine some beautiful Southern Florida sun, breeze, and Vitamin D won't take me back to normal.
For those of you out there with no hope, please hang in there. There is hope. I am gonna beat this and so can you.
-big$$$
Yesterday I spent so much time on here reading about people's experiences. I am soo shocked to see the amount of NEGATIVE posts on here about Suboxone. It seems to me like everyone who was/is on it for months and months has a terrible time getting off. Now I know it would be stupid for me to say that the four day taper worked for me, seeing as though how I got back on the drugs two short months later. But I honestly feel that the best way for me to kick my habit is to kick the physical in the butt with the subs for a couple of days (normally my oxy W/d's would last about 4 days) and then work on the mental. I know I need to either talk to somebody about it, or go to NA or something. Last time I thought I could do it myself, which was obviously retarded.
BUT - I find it really hard to believe that there are not more people out there with success stories. I am going to keep posting here as I go through this period in my life, again....just for people out there who need some positive re-enforcement. I HAVE KICKED OXY'S BEFORE AND i AM DOING IT AGAIN RIGHT NOW. I am going on vacation a week from today, so hopefully by then I will feel pretty close to normal again. I can't imagine some beautiful Southern Florida sun, breeze, and Vitamin D won't take me back to normal.
For those of you out there with no hope, please hang in there. There is hope. I am gonna beat this and so can you.
-big$$$
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Hey guys - Day 5. So I finally hit the wall last night and I missed my night of sleep. I got a few hours, then tossed and turned from like 1am - 6am. So terrible. That is the worst part of it I think. I just love to sleep so maybe it is me, but... I am the most lethargic I have felt since this whole ordeal started 5 long days ago. I am tempted to take like a milligram or two of the subs, to get thru work today, but I feel like that will be giving in and will just drag this thing out longer than it needs to be.
I know people who take the subs for months and months have very long withdrawal periods afterwards. But if I only took it for two days this time, my feeling is that it was out of my body completely as of 8pm Wednesday night. The way I see it, yesteday was the worst I am going to feel (the first true day with nothing), and every day from here on out will be a little better. At least that is what I am telling myself.
So that's where I am. no oxys since sunday. Good for me. I am very happy. That is what is getting me thru.....I will post later or this weekend as things progress - I hope.
Big$$$
I know people who take the subs for months and months have very long withdrawal periods afterwards. But if I only took it for two days this time, my feeling is that it was out of my body completely as of 8pm Wednesday night. The way I see it, yesteday was the worst I am going to feel (the first true day with nothing), and every day from here on out will be a little better. At least that is what I am telling myself.
So that's where I am. no oxys since sunday. Good for me. I am very happy. That is what is getting me thru.....I will post later or this weekend as things progress - I hope.
Big$$$
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Just wanted to say good job so far and if you relapse again i think its time to get some kind of long term help I don't think methadone would be a good option for you due to your low usage and how that becomes a monkey in itself. Good Luck to you and take walks in the nature or the beach or whatever your area has to offer keep yourself soo busy you cant even think about using again because when you aren't busy thats all you will think of.
In all Good Luck and STELLAR job so far it is VERY HARD so keep telling yourself how well your doing because you are.
In all Good Luck and STELLAR job so far it is VERY HARD so keep telling yourself how well your doing because you are.
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Hey Guys
Today is day 8, or at least the beginning of it. I have made it a week clean, phew. Steal pretty sweaty and haven't gotten a ton of sleep, but overall I'm pretty pumped. A little lethargic but a couple cups of coffee and I'm good. Keeping busy is a god-send. Keeps my mind off calling the connect.
You know what has been tough this time? Triggers. I get them all the time. When I drive past a certain building where I used to score, or when I hear a song I listened to high, or even when my text message goes off. I used to run to the phone hoping things were good and I could pick up....Triggers are tough.
If I can do this, you guys can do this...
Today is day 8, or at least the beginning of it. I have made it a week clean, phew. Steal pretty sweaty and haven't gotten a ton of sleep, but overall I'm pretty pumped. A little lethargic but a couple cups of coffee and I'm good. Keeping busy is a god-send. Keeps my mind off calling the connect.
You know what has been tough this time? Triggers. I get them all the time. When I drive past a certain building where I used to score, or when I hear a song I listened to high, or even when my text message goes off. I used to run to the phone hoping things were good and I could pick up....Triggers are tough.
If I can do this, you guys can do this...
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Hi Big$$$ There's some people having difficulty with suboxone and oxycontin and I don't think that a lot of people feel like they can do it. I don't know if you're still around but if you are, can you come post an update as to how you're doing? Thanks!
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Did you ever try kratom or have luck with it? I've had a lot of people tell me that it works well over the years. We've been helping folks with kratom at Major Kratom since 2010. Good luck fighting the fight.
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