I went through a trauma, nothing big but still really messed me up mentally but Im just wondering if I'm experiening PTSD or something else. Well for the pasf 2 years I developed alot of symptoms such as major anxiety, derealization/deperonlization. But the ones that are worrying me the most that my body sometimes hurt, like poking painful pains all over and feel very sore. Another thing is I can't grab anything like I drop things easily or can't get a grip on it or I feel very weak at times and tell other people to do it for me. I also get this weird feeling that when I try looking up or look at something my mind gets a weird feeling in my head and immediately look away and that feeling goes away. And another thing I can't put on my makeup, when I try I feel like my mind doesn't accept it and I get this shaky unfocus feeling which sucks cause I use too love putting on makeup without any problem.. Also another thing I can't feel any feelings in my mind or that comfortable safe feeling, like If i want to feel relaxed mentally my mind blocks it, no matter how hard I try & there's times I feel like my breathing sucks and cant get a deep breath. I'm just wondering if there's other people that have similar symptoms, I honestly feel like I'm the only one experiencing this? I just want to be normal again..