I'm now on day 2 of quitting weed after 21 years, I'm 36 and been doing this sh*t since I was 14!! Smoked just lightly as a kid but as soon as I got a job all my wages went on it! I smoked to go to work, jobinterviews the lot and now I'm the wrong side of 30 taking my kids to school stoned! The simple fact is I think I smoke myself normal ( to me!).I seriously don't know how to handle my emotions straight.Iv'e never been one to write on these sites but now find myself trawling through forums looking for answers! But there one simple fact, I gotta quit. My attempts at quitting in the past have been futile, I think 3-4 days(once in my life) is my record. Might be more or less but I can't remember :( and that been the situation for the past 3-4 years, I now find myself filling the void of memories in my head with fake ones, don't ask! You'll know what I'm on about if your in the same state as me. I found myself daily smoking J's and asking myself, why am I seriously doing this sh*t? I now feel its a paradox. I smoke to say calm (or so I say to myself) but it actually stresses me out. I have built my whole character around being a stoner and now look at my kids and ask do I wish this on them? Now I have never had a problem with the weed ( used to be a stand up warrior and would defend my right and reasons why I and others smoked it and why it should be legal) but now I just dont like my old friend. I put it before anything to be straight.Stoned on my wedding day(which I screwed guess what,beingstoned) the days my kids came into this life, everything, I had to be stoned!!! Which is sad. Well not anymore, I've had problems with other substances in my life( alchahol almost daily for 10 years, diazepam daily for over a year andI think I was on them when I made my first and only quit) so I guess I'm a text book addict! But I'm going to do it this time . I have visualised the new me in my head and actually see me as a calm non stoner enjoying life with my kids. I have built up a hate campaign in my mind against it! I know I can do this, when I quit booze I realised I can't change the world but can onlychange me, so opted not to preach and defiantly go out and drink coke and just be frank about it! And I'm gonna do the same with this! If anyone got any sleep tips or anti stress tips please share and if you're in the same situ or do smoke and think daily, WHY? Join me in the quest for a normal life. G
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