No war story here... just trying to find the courage and fortitude to quit.  I've been on subs on/off, mostly on for 3+ yrs... never made it more than a month without falling back to percs, oxys, thinking w/d from those would be quicker.   I think it's my job as the reason for my inability to quit.  It requires complex thought , analysis , and worse of all sitting for most of an 8hr work day.....  the 2-3 days i can suck up,  the 2 weeks of insomnia are unbearable, but the lingering dysphoria, lethargy, and depression are seemingly endless...  but knowing my current state is one of clouded thought and dependence on somethin that only makes me feel better than if i didn't but it limits my thoughts and  emotions... i literally speak and think and walk in circles and has tilted my life in a negative direction and i don't know how much longer I can maintain...  I wanna be free and ive read hundreds of forums and posts and treatments... and it all come down to the same refrain... there's no easy way out.