I am 22 yrs old, just graduated university. I used to smoke occasionally in high school (gr 11-12), few times a month, roughly 3-10. smoked more in college, 2-3 times per week. In my final year however, i pretty much stopped. i didnt like it anymore, because it started to make me feel very antisocial and paranoid. it would be ok some times because it made me realize very deep things (deep insight), but when people were around i just wanted it to wear off.
at the end of my final year (the one i barely smoked much), i smoked part of a joint with some buddies at the very end of the year just cos it was around and i figured what the hell why not. the effects were very strong, and i became anti social. i wanted the effects to wear off desperately. when i woke up the next morning, i was still realllly burnt out (mildly high). this wasnt a good thing because the anti social behavior that accompanies the high was still present. 9 months later, this "mild high"/terrible burn out has not diminished AT ALL. this is a shockingly long time and the quality of my life has suffered tremendously as a result. no word of a lie, none of this is BS. i have gone online looking for similar cases but have not found anything. bottom line: i have not TOUCHED weed in the 9 months since but i am still experiencing after effects that make feel as though i am still mildly high. for example, things just visually look strange and different as though i were really high.
i dont know how the tackle this problem and get better. cant even get a job because too paranoid/anxious around people.
has anyone else heard of or experienced something of this magnitude? some advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
at the end of my final year (the one i barely smoked much), i smoked part of a joint with some buddies at the very end of the year just cos it was around and i figured what the hell why not. the effects were very strong, and i became anti social. i wanted the effects to wear off desperately. when i woke up the next morning, i was still realllly burnt out (mildly high). this wasnt a good thing because the anti social behavior that accompanies the high was still present. 9 months later, this "mild high"/terrible burn out has not diminished AT ALL. this is a shockingly long time and the quality of my life has suffered tremendously as a result. no word of a lie, none of this is BS. i have gone online looking for similar cases but have not found anything. bottom line: i have not TOUCHED weed in the 9 months since but i am still experiencing after effects that make feel as though i am still mildly high. for example, things just visually look strange and different as though i were really high.
i dont know how the tackle this problem and get better. cant even get a job because too paranoid/anxious around people.
has anyone else heard of or experienced something of this magnitude? some advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
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Hey. Im 19 years old and I had a similar experience this summer. im not a smoker- ive smoked weed like 10 times in my life, maybe less. i never liked being high because its just way too intense for me but this summer after my freshman year in college i decided to just do it because i was going to be leaving and was bored i guess. i smoked, only two hits, and it was like the world and everything didnt make any sense at ALL.
I was wondering off trying to get home, walking in the middle of the street- i was only around the corner. i get to my house and my friends who smoked are with me. i tell them i feel like somethings wrong because stuff was going black and i felt like i was crazy and about to die. i tired eating, drinking milk and i think i even too a shower to calm down- NOTHING helped. anyway there was this major scene where i just went nuts! like i was screaming, crawling on the floor, panicked and in a whole other mind frame. my moms boyfriend pushed me in a cold shower, i crawled out the shower and kept screaming and they just kept pouring water on me to get me to snap out of it. i came to the point where i thought, "this is it, im going to die". I said a little prayer and said, "God, if you just bring me through this i will NEVER do it again and i will start living for You and straighten my act up, i promise." i went to take a nap and finally fell asleep in my moms bed. i woke up the next morning and couldnt BELIEVE what happened.
i went back to college and started really thinking about life and the important things in life and even though i was drinking and stuff i still felt a connection to God and felt good everyday. i was also reading a book called "the purpose driven life" by rick warren, VERY good read!from that day i said i wouldnt do it again- but i did. one more time when i got back from winter break. Then i randomly watched this movie called paranormal activity- NOT A GOOD MOVIE, It was a very disturbing movie for me. I started losing sleep because i had bad dreams. then i started questioning my religion and started over analyzing EVERYTHING! i started to lose my personality, im normally a very up beat, happy, loving life, goofy girl. Then i noticed small changes at first. I couldnt do anything that i normally could do. i didnt respond the same to people, didnt laugh at anything, couldnt understand a joke, couldnt find the words to say about ANYTHING. its been 6 months and i actually smoked even though i know i shouldnt have and it has set me back even further. i no longer feel a connection to anything and i cant seem to remember anything about my laugh or who i used to be. if the weed caused this then it was the WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.
i try to pray and hope but its like i am not able to feel normal, its like im PERMANENTLY HIGH. i cant enjoy life like this. its been 6 months. I know God never leaves you or forsakes you so i just pray the best i can and just try and be patient until He takes this away. Ive been to counseling and seen psychiatrists and have taken medicine- ITS NOT WORKING. ONLY God can bring me out of this. Im waiting because it is all i can do.
I was wondering off trying to get home, walking in the middle of the street- i was only around the corner. i get to my house and my friends who smoked are with me. i tell them i feel like somethings wrong because stuff was going black and i felt like i was crazy and about to die. i tired eating, drinking milk and i think i even too a shower to calm down- NOTHING helped. anyway there was this major scene where i just went nuts! like i was screaming, crawling on the floor, panicked and in a whole other mind frame. my moms boyfriend pushed me in a cold shower, i crawled out the shower and kept screaming and they just kept pouring water on me to get me to snap out of it. i came to the point where i thought, "this is it, im going to die". I said a little prayer and said, "God, if you just bring me through this i will NEVER do it again and i will start living for You and straighten my act up, i promise." i went to take a nap and finally fell asleep in my moms bed. i woke up the next morning and couldnt BELIEVE what happened.
i went back to college and started really thinking about life and the important things in life and even though i was drinking and stuff i still felt a connection to God and felt good everyday. i was also reading a book called "the purpose driven life" by rick warren, VERY good read!from that day i said i wouldnt do it again- but i did. one more time when i got back from winter break. Then i randomly watched this movie called paranormal activity- NOT A GOOD MOVIE, It was a very disturbing movie for me. I started losing sleep because i had bad dreams. then i started questioning my religion and started over analyzing EVERYTHING! i started to lose my personality, im normally a very up beat, happy, loving life, goofy girl. Then i noticed small changes at first. I couldnt do anything that i normally could do. i didnt respond the same to people, didnt laugh at anything, couldnt understand a joke, couldnt find the words to say about ANYTHING. its been 6 months and i actually smoked even though i know i shouldnt have and it has set me back even further. i no longer feel a connection to anything and i cant seem to remember anything about my laugh or who i used to be. if the weed caused this then it was the WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.
i try to pray and hope but its like i am not able to feel normal, its like im PERMANENTLY HIGH. i cant enjoy life like this. its been 6 months. I know God never leaves you or forsakes you so i just pray the best i can and just try and be patient until He takes this away. Ive been to counseling and seen psychiatrists and have taken medicine- ITS NOT WORKING. ONLY God can bring me out of this. Im waiting because it is all i can do.
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You know, what you have described is exactly what I experienced after taking acid one time. I mean the problems went away after a year or so but I am definately changed from it for good. Maybe that last bud was laced with something and no one told you? Just a theory. I am 20 years old and have been smoking weed for more than half of my life so im not sure if this is at all helpful but I tried! %-)
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You smoked some pot and now your senses and mind have come alive. The world was not at all the place you once thought it was and pot has caused all those synapses in your mind to fire off at once and realize this. God already came to you, 6 months ago.
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