I have so much going on.  I have spent my whole life since age of 15 on a diet.  Basically starving then binging on weekends because of so much depprivatin the back to starving.  When I wasnt on a diet I ate only one meal a day, so that was basically a diet in other peoples standards.  I am 51 years old.  I dieting myself up to 225 at 5 ft 3.  I went on hcg almost 2 years ago and lost 75 lbs.  Only time in my life I was able to lose without mega dosing on diet pills exercise and eating around 300 calories a day.  Anyway, I was almost to my goal then went on atkins and have gained 30 lbs in 8 months.  I am scared to go off because if I gain on no carbs what will happen if I eat?  Anyway U are probably wondering where I am going with my weight but I wonder If the extreme dieting is causing the problems or anxiety, severe depression.  My daughter died 4 years ago in a car accident.   I was on a crazy 10 year low carb then low calorie diet when she died, after her death I quit.  I didnt care anymore but I went back to my pattern of not eatting and only one meal a day.  Gained about 10 lbs doing that.  Quit my exercise routine.  I have always had sort of a cloudy feeling in  my head and tire easly, no motavation.  sort of a home body. but I always pushed myself.  I had 4 kids at home that keep me busy and motivated me to do things.  I only have one at home now, so that has caused me depression too. My whole life I have been told that I am beautiful (not to brag) but It always made me try so hard to be slim.  I also am very shy and have a bit of social anxiety and self esteem issues.  I felt I dont have much of a personaility so I relied on my looks.  I think just being tired and lack of energy affected my personality   Its hard being fat when u dont eat much at all!  Anyway after i got off the Hcg I started gettin extremely tired and weak, weird feeling in my head, maybe considered lightheaded.  I thought maybe it was from not eatting carbs but its gotten so bad lately, I am almost agoraphobic.  I have always been on low carb and only occionally had these sympoms.  It even happens after I cheat.  I ate a little ice cream last night and still have this feeling.  I have had my thyroid checked 4 times because I have all the symptoms and it come back normal.  I have been told I slowed my metabolism  from so much dieting and starvation.  I also have severve depression but dont take anti depressants because of fear of gaining weight plus I drink everyfew weeks or so and defietly overdue it.  I have just started having anxiety attack, so I wonder if my depression and anxiety is causing it.  It's tax time and I am 4 years behind on them and am trying to catch up with bookkeeping but havent started yet so maybe the thought of it is giving me these attacks.  It had been gong on a while now though but it usually gets better as the week progresses.  Anyone have any advice...Thanks