Hey there.This is too everybody suffering through the horrendous affliction of having to deal with WDs. I honestly don't expect or care if anyone reads or comments, but it would be nice as far as support. Really just needed to whisper this from a mountain, if you can grasp that strange analogy lol. I cant talk to anyone about this. I am a very secretive person and prefer the "suffer in silence" approach. My conservative, wealthy, and very judgmental family would never understand. They would just throw it back in my face later on....anyway i have been abusing opiates for almost two years straight. Taking a cpl day breaks then succumbing to WDs. I finally got the willpower to save enough to taper off and let me tell ya, its the best way. I completely stopped 2 months ago after getting down to a 10mg percocet a day. I was doing around 8 a day. I have never been addicted to anything besides cigarettes before so u can imagine how confused i was when i started feeling like absolute sh*t after i would run out. I actually remember the exact moment that i realized i was an addict. Just that word was enough to make me want to slice my wrists. I have never felt so pathetic and weak in my life. I have always enjoyed drugs in moderation and ridiculed people that couldn't "handle their high". Just another side affect of being raised by a nazi of a mother. There's no point judging situations like this. Its about surviving it cuz sooner or later the drug will consume your life and no ones put downs or negativity will help at all. Most of the people that dont fight and continue this path end up losing everything they love and are left alone with their little bottle of pills, or scotch, or whatever does it for them. What kind of life is that?.....I had never considered suicide till the last time i tried to come off pk's. That's when i knew i had to do it the right way. The way you come off any meds prescribed to you. GRADUALLY. I have tried everything under the sun and that's the only way i recommend if u want to come off opiates and stay off. The natural high u got from life at one point will come back. The underlying issue will need to be addressed. Why did u start taking them? Pain or pleasure? I didn't want to feel. Life delivered more than i could stomach so i escaped. Keep these four words pulling you through as well "THIS TOO SHALL PASS". That phrase has gotten me through alot of rough patches. Good luck if anyone should read this and be suffering through the same transition as me. You'll get through it. Just takes one step at a time...
Loading...
Best of luck to you. I have been taking 3 10/325 hydrocodone tabs a day for about 10 weeks now because of a shoulder surgery. This is actually muchbless than the prescribed dosage. I Felt bad one morning so I completely quit. Started feeling so bad I scared the sh*t out of myself. The shakes, high bp, anxiety, nausea, weakness, restless legs, not sleeping, I went to the emergency room and they told me it was anxiety, probably not withdrawals. Well after reading up on it...it is exactly withdrawals and it sucks. I thought I was doing the right thing by taking less than what was prescribed for the pain. Apparently any is enough for your body to become completely addicted and have to suffer through this c**p. I mentally would rather just deal with the pain. I don't take them to get high, only for pain management. I wish I would have known that such a small amount is just as addictive as a large one. I hate this feeling and am just waiting for it to go away. I can't even function properly. How long will this last? Is the wd just as bad if I've been on a low dose for a short period of time? I would feel better if I knew there was some light at the end of the tunnel of hell. I will never again take a narcotic pain med. I can't believe this sh*t is legal!!!
Loading...