i am having a really hard time living with myself after having an abortion, i feel as though i gave what i wanted to keep everyone else happy. my boyfriend has 2 children already who i couldnt love more evern if they were my own, and now it hurts so much to be around them and watch their father play with them after he told me he wanted me to have an abortion,
will this feeling of guilt and emptiness ever go away, will i ever be able to have my relationship back with my step children. i cant find the words to explain it to my boyfriend what i am feeling, but i dont think he cares to know anyway. someone please help i am not coping i have suffered depression since i was 16, im now 21, and it worse than ever now, i have been have suicidal thoughts alot latley. please help, i feel so alone.