Hi,

I am prescribed adderal 20 mg instant release and when I drink I feel like I can act crazy. I lost a friend because of it. When I took adderall and then drank and i beat him up really bad. Tonight I drank a little after taking adderall earlier. I was planning to meet up with some girl I met recently and when she didn't answer to my calls or text for a little I left her a really really mean voicemail. I heard from her later and apparntely her phone died. Ofcourse I lost the opportunity to hook up with her because I told her she was trash. I don't know what to do because with out Adderall I can't get anything done but I want to have more self control.