Addicted to masturbation

I am extremely addicted to masturbating its like a drug I can't help my self I can't fight the urge to stop its awful I feel so guilty I am 20 years old I been doing this for years I don't remember how I started I masturbate diffrent then most men I don't use my hands are lotion I pull my pants all the Way down but not my boxers and I grind on the bed sometime the floor I recently stop cause of the pain afterwards but I fantasize about stuff like a class mate ex girl friend are teacher female friend girls next door any girls that come to mind girls at work and I have had sex with three and when i am there i go crazy I wanted to masturbate so bad nobody knows I do this I mean nobody I Nevee been caught I am not addicted to porn my fantasy is good enough for me I am imagine myself as a porn star I told myself this is not masturbation cause masturbation is with the hands I called it excise the longest I went was a week I am addicted to sex every sense 13 I use to have sex with my cousin all the time I would fantasize all the time about her all Day I don't know how we stared doing it we never discuss it i feel so ashamed for I what done mention to anybody I masturbate all day maybe like 10 times a day real sex don't turn me on depending on the girl I was touch on as a child something nobody knows it something I ignore in my head I can't stop these lustful thoughts somebody help me I need a word of advice 

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