I might be through the detox but I wonder if I'll ever feel ''normal'' again. I crave like crazy and don't have enough energy. How long until I begin to feel like the person I was before I got caught up in this horrible addiction? I snorted between 60-80 mgs a day for several months and started this addiction with percs a couple years ago. I am depressed, lethargic, emotional and just wish I could be happy with ME instead of a opiated me. This is the hardest battle I could have imagined and I NEED to beat this. I have too much to lose if I don't! I wish I could go back in time so badly and never started. I just want to feel ok with myself again.
Hi hon: YOU WILL! I promise, right now you are in the early stages of kicking this thing out of your life. Your addicted brain is making this hard for you, it NEEDS too be ceciated, I cannot tell you how much I relate too you and I hear you and feel for you. This WILL get better honey I promise, just know that the light at the end of the tunnel will be coming brighter and brighter each day. What's done is done and what was has gone. All you can control is right now, yesterday is over and tommorrow is wide open. One day soon, I promise you, you will wake up and think after a couple of hours "Heh I feel better right now" and that is what will heppen each day. I am not saying you will not MISS your lover, you will. I am not saying that you wont want to snort when things get tough, you will. What I can tell you is that you WILL get clearer thoughts, you WILL have better relationships.
Keep talking and keep asking for help. I don't endorse cold turkey or trying to do this by yourself. So I wanted to see if you can actually get some medical help for you to get off this with the least amount of problems too yourself as possible. When I was on Methadone, it didn't really help me. But it does help others, the unfortunate thing with that is you can become addicted to that!!!! So it's like a catch 22.
There are many herbs that can help you, if you go into your local healthfood store, tell them your story - I did - and they can tell you what too take. I am on here so if you ever need too talk, OK! It WILL be better I promise!! Good luck hon!
Keep talking and keep asking for help. I don't endorse cold turkey or trying to do this by yourself. So I wanted to see if you can actually get some medical help for you to get off this with the least amount of problems too yourself as possible. When I was on Methadone, it didn't really help me. But it does help others, the unfortunate thing with that is you can become addicted to that!!!! So it's like a catch 22.
There are many herbs that can help you, if you go into your local healthfood store, tell them your story - I did - and they can tell you what too take. I am on here so if you ever need too talk, OK! It WILL be better I promise!! Good luck hon!
Thanks! I can't believe how much of a hold those things got on me. Although the withdrawals have gone I just don't feel right. So anxious and not happy even though I should be because I've finally stopped snorting my life away. But I DO miss the feeling. They made me feel normal and happy although I know that was an illusion. When I didn't have them all I could think about was how to get my next one. I really hope sooner then later I start to feel okay with myself again. I know it will take time and thats the killer, that space of time in between when your trying to stay clean but your brain racing and you just would love to feel normal for awhile. That must be why relapse is so common, detox is the easy part compared to the mental addiction. Thank you again for your encouragement. I have come a long way but the journey is far from over but it makes me feel better to hear from someone who's been through it that I won't feel like this forever.
Hi. Even though the "detox" part is over. The addiction part isn't, thus your brain still being "fuzzy". Think of it in plain terms, the addicted brain has been running your home for years, TOTALLY in charge etc. So then you took back control of the house and shut it in the basement! Even though you have back in the house, you are constantly hearing the grumbling from the basement!!!! ;-) XD Eventually you will be able to get good insulation and a new stereo so you will here the grumbling less and less, till one day the brain knocks at the door and says "Will you let me back in the house if I promise too be nice?!" XD XD ;-)
I used too think I was happy on them and I used them for everything other than for pain. It's just like any other drug though, you are SO high that when you come down it's like someone punched you in the head. So I equate my life now, too not being punched in the head anymore!! It took me awhile too start equating NOW to being better. Do you understand? I kept thinking that before was SO much better, when in reality it wasn't. I didn't have too deal with anymore downs from unrealistic highs. Now it's just a new reality, it is something too get used too. This IS normal!! The other wasn't! You have too give yourself a REAL pat on the back honey! What you accomplished is HUGE. People who never were addicted they don't have a clue what your struggling with. So be easier on yourself and be proud of yourself for getting this far, there IS a little bit of distance still to go. But that is NOTHING compared too what you have been through. And it WILL happen, like I said all of a sudden it will hit you that you have felt good for a couple of hours, a couple of days etc. Think about ALL that you have accomplished, you haven't LOST anything, right? You have gained your life back, now you just need too learn how too live it!!! :-D
I used too think I was happy on them and I used them for everything other than for pain. It's just like any other drug though, you are SO high that when you come down it's like someone punched you in the head. So I equate my life now, too not being punched in the head anymore!! It took me awhile too start equating NOW to being better. Do you understand? I kept thinking that before was SO much better, when in reality it wasn't. I didn't have too deal with anymore downs from unrealistic highs. Now it's just a new reality, it is something too get used too. This IS normal!! The other wasn't! You have too give yourself a REAL pat on the back honey! What you accomplished is HUGE. People who never were addicted they don't have a clue what your struggling with. So be easier on yourself and be proud of yourself for getting this far, there IS a little bit of distance still to go. But that is NOTHING compared too what you have been through. And it WILL happen, like I said all of a sudden it will hit you that you have felt good for a couple of hours, a couple of days etc. Think about ALL that you have accomplished, you haven't LOST anything, right? You have gained your life back, now you just need too learn how too live it!!! :-D