I don't know, anything in life can become addicting. You just have to know your personality and how to handle it. I never feel like I need it, but I know there have been times when I turn to coke, and do too much, too fast, to try to distract myself. In the end I never really like the high I get, because I just feel more restless. I try to keep my use social, as then you stay more moderate, and have the shared experience, which is one of the "pros" of drug use.That being said, I mostly do it in the company of close friends. Occasionaly in social situations outside the home I will do it, but mostly it is a hassle to find the place and I usually feel too paranoid about my nose starting to run, or other signs being obvious to the public.
There have been occasions when I knew I was toeing the line (i.e the 18 hour marathon) and using too much too often. I'd finish my last bit and close the book on it for about 2-4 weeks. Immoderation leads to too much tolerance, and besides that being detrimental to your health, it also gets too expensive.
I neither recommend or discourage use of coke, but beyond this substance, I strongly resist and discourage.
I think its a personal choice, and you have to know the reason for why you are getting high- and make sure its for the "right" reasons, and you're not treating it as an answer to a problem. Can't forget that the side effects are not glamorous, and some of them are detrimental and can't be reversed. None the less, there are plenty of other illegal, and legal substances that can be just as harmful.
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I'm coming at this as someone who has never touched coke but have been living with an addict for the past 3 years unknowingly in the begining. I read these messages and cried, my boyfriend at his worst was on 20gramms in a night, the sob stories, pleas and lies I have heard during this time are infinite. Seeing the person you love and father of your 1 year old daughter in such metal and physical torment from this drug has changed me in so many ways.. As I am writing this I am in bed alone after sending my boyfriend away for verbally abusing me his mother is now trying to help him as he is craving more cocaine but yet doesn't want to do it anymore... Taking him out into the sticks away from any dealers he knows!
On the come downs of coke he has verbally abused me, hit me (whilst holding our baby) and yet hardly ever remembers a thing, the arguments have been so many our children are being monitored by social services and my house has been smashed up many times. He sezured last year with White c**p coming out of his nose and mouth after having pains in his chest 2 mins before.. And being sick i managed to get an ambulance there within minutes but it felt like forever.. Holding his head as it smashed against the wall, tilting his head so that he didnt swallow his tongue was petrifiying! We ended up in a and e then on a mental ward as the side effects can be worse in ways than the original problem and last far longer.... The effects on me have been huge I ended up so stressed by having no control of what is happening to someone I love or being able to stop him that I now have very severe irritable bowel syndrome where I can be in so much pain I'm on morphine being sick upset stomach and I have had severe weight loss I lost 6 1/2 stone this year ending with a 2 week stay in hospital to try to get my weight within the normal bracket ...
I know lots of you justify your actions as just having a line or 2 what's the harm in that but it really is the effect this drug not only has on you but the people who care about you... Even if right now ESP if you've been on coke you think no one does care it's probably the drug talking no matter how mad angry etc your parents or partners or even kids get with you it is usually out of frustration of not being able to stop you using sacredness you might die or have given up at the moment or say they have to try to make you hit rock bottom to realise for yourself the misery this short lived high drug is having on your life in order for you to stop... Instead of taking this drug why not work out what is missing or wrong with your lives to make you want to risk this future for yourselves... My boyfriend started off just like all of you just a line or too here and there and now is after 3 years of on and off usage on the mental health list .. Has a sectioning order over his head if he becomes aggressive or violent to anyone and quite often wishes he was dead cos he can't understand how that happy go lucky guy on one or two lines got himself in such a state .. And everyday doesn't know whether his actions will make it his last on this earth and his last time looking at his beautiful daughter... I hope and I pray every day that my boyfriend finds a cure for his addiction and finds the help that he needs I still try to be strong and be there for him but I know this is not a life I want long term for me and my children and I have realised after hospital visits etc etc that no one can save him but himself ! I miss the man I met he was such a lovely guy... I hope next time I write on this it isn't to tell you he had a stroke and has died ... Find something good to give you a buzz in life cause all this drug eventually does is ruin your life loose you friends and family loose your respect from others and yourself wastes your money whilst setting your dealers lives up nicely and can cost you your mental health or in the end or beginning if your unlucky your life , I pray for you all, sorry if I sound like I'm preaching to you but it's sad to think so many of you out there are doing this to yourselves for what you all think is fun! My boyfriend is 24 dying this young seems pointless
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It damages your "pleasure" receptors in the brain. But by all means continue to destroy that part of your brain so that you'll never feel pleasure without higher amounts of this obviously waste of money yet too expensive c**p.
To the person who was doing coke after having a child. Honestly, do the kid a favor and put it up for adoption. Until you can prove to your family, and yourself, that this won't ever happen again, and until any guy in your life proves he isn't hooked on this, you don't deserve to raise a child.
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On a side not, what is the best way to break friendships and relationships with people who i associate with that hang around with me mainly for the drug alone. i find myself waking up after late nights of partying about three times a week, depressed and saying i will never use again, not only to find myself crossing the bridge to get another sack. i dont really spend money on it cause i am one of the few who has a steady 24/7 hook up of some good for cheap and they supply me for getting it. I havent lost my drive in wanting a successful life, but have lost a fiance and many 'real' friends in the years. i have been bad off for about 3 years and want help, but dont want the shame, so to speak, in breaking down. i want to though, or i would not be typing this now. thanks for listening.........
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Hi ! My name is Rob and I'm an addict. :) Im new to the whole blog/forum/discussion thing and figured this topic was the best place to start. I personally have never been admitted for OD but after reading the above posts, there is no doubt I have gone thru them lol. Snorted coke from when i was 17 until present. In 2004 i upgraded to crack as the coke high was geting mundane and boring. I ended up working for my dealer for 5 yrs and doing it literally every day. There was not one day in roughly five yrs i didnt use. Longest i stayted up on it was 13 days. Started hallucinating BAD and almost caused a MAJOR car accident. Slept like a baby for two and half days lol. Tried rehab and quitting on my own. Nothing has ever worked.bout 8 months ago i tried injectig it. That was the ABSOLUTE BEST high ever but,did it the once and never again. Not cuz high sucked cuz it didnt. It was the thought tat it was bad enuf my kids had a drug adict as a dad but to have track marks running all over my body i coyuldnt deal with that. b but i I have been clean since May 18, By changing people, places, and things this time, it has made it alot easier. Some days SUCK ASS lol but ive made it thru them:) Anyways, thanks for reading. Wishing u al in recovery another safe 24.
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