This post is in regard to a conversation I had with a friend, a few weeks ago. Both her boyfriend and I are cannabis addicts. Both of us are in our mid-30's and have used cannabis daily since we were both pre-teens. Both of us (like many drugs addicts) have attachment issues (him with his mother, me with my father).
Mine & my friend's conversation was based around the theory that people take drugs to repress certain issues & feelings. My friend suggested that cannabis dependency was linked to repressed anger. I tended to disagree- I said that it was more based around anxiety & depression; however, that said, depression IS self-anger & hate and illogical guilt.
Anyway- I stopped smoking cannabis and am currently going through withdrawals....and the repressed anger is rearing it's ugly head, yet I don't really know how to deal with it. My focus is all over the place, so writing it out is difficult; I can't sleep, yet I'm absolutely shattered, so exercise is a no-no at the mo. I won't go to my doctor- I've asked for help for this addiction before and found him as helpful as a chocolate tea-pot! And I am NOT going back on to anti-depressants (spent years on them & found pot more helpful).
Thus, I'm asking other ex-addicts....
What drug did you choose and why? When you stopped, what was the one prevailing emotion that you found difficult to deal with?
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