I am 17 years old and have been diagnosed with depression but I don't think that that's all I have. I find that I really don't give a c**p about anything anymore. I'm apathetic but try to pretend a little bit of empathy because I feel helpless at the thought of being alone. I can stare into space and completely block out everything and I get so distracted with NOTHING when trying to work on important things. I've tried to talk to my family doctor but all he's given me is a perscription that hasn't done anything and we don't have enough money for a psychologist. Normally, I wouldn't really be seeking help like this but I don't want to live out the rest of my life in a state of gray. College is soon and I'd rather die than live knowing that a stupid disorder ruined any chance of happiness if this ever ends.

Any suggestions? Do I have a personalit disorder?