I found out im pregnant almost a week ago. At first I wanted to keep the baby, but after a serious talk with my boyfriend I have some what changed my mind. He doesnt want me to keep it because he's not ready, he couldnt support it. He's also going through a rough patch of life. I being the mother have already fallen inlove with my child, but realize I couldnt be a fit mother. Not now. My home life is bad, I have no job, and im only 17. I dont know what to do anymore. Keeping the baby would be very tough and not to sound selfish but it would ruin my life. I'd lose my family, most of my friends, wouldn't graduate and the baby would have a rough life. But I dont feel I could live with the guilt of choosing to end my babys life. It would be different if I had a miscarriage, but being the person to choose to do it already kills me. I cry non-stop just thinking about doing it. I dont know what to do either decision is going to change my life completely. Theres no way in hell that Im ready to be a mother yet. Im just so scared.
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