Due to negative self-image from having a 2 inch flaccid penis, I suffer from severe anxiety and depression.  I am forty-five years of age and am overcome by the above.  I live with a parent, am unemployed, love to masterbate, and view pornography of boys and men.  I never stop thinking I wish I had a larger penis.  This has dominated my life, unfortunately.  I have become obsessed with boys and twinks.  I now find related fetishes of same sex attraction more desireable than heterosexual sex.   Maybe this is a rhetorical question, but should I just 'fake it till I make it' confidence wise, with a woman?