Hi Michelle. Sorry to hear about the little bump in the road. The last couple of weeks I have seen so many people relapse that I'm starting to think I might be bad luck. Truth is relapse is just a reality of recovery and while 'its not recommended' it is some thing we can use. I'm glad that you were able to see it for what it is and realize its just not worth the price.
I know how tough things are with your situation and not having a local NA chapter. I have been mixing in some AA meetings along with my NA meetings. With my history of alcoholism it makes sense. I used to go to AA and have a real bad attitude. I thought the meetings were sh$? So I didn't want to go. Now I realize it just wasn't my time and it was me who had the sh!& attitude and not the meetings. Point is, if you don't have a local NA meeting maybe you could try sitting in on a local AA meeting. The steps and format are the same and you don't have to tell anyone your there for H and not booze. It's just a thought, I really feel bad that your trying to get through the kick without any support. And you have to kick for your two babies.
I'm going to have 60 days next Tuesday and I'm getting excited about it. Also starting to find peace with my family situation. I think that splitting up is dead wrong for my kids but in the end if wife wants to split and won't even consider reconciling then there is nothing I can do about it. In the same way I surrender my life and will to God and ask him to lift my compulsion to use drugs I have to surrender my family situation to his hands. I'm getting better at turning my will over to God (2nd step) and I am becoming excited about the future he has for me. There's nothing real dramatic yet but I am starting to see God working in my life and I am becoming convinced that the future is going to be a better, more exciting place than the past.
I gave up alcohol in 2007 and stared using in 2010. I used to be pretty proud of the sober years but as time goes by I realize that I spent spent every day of those three years thinking about drinking. I was sober and people told me how strong I was to stop drinking but I was miserable on the inside. By thinking I could control the addict in me I set the stage for my relapse onto dope. When I think about what I want for the future I don't want to go back to drinking or drugs but I don't want to go back to being a miserable sober person either. That is the realization that makes me excited. If I work the 12 steps and stay in NA I can have a future where I can be happy without using or drinking and I am coming to believe that God has great things to come for me.
I hope you are still hanging in there Michelle and remember that using didn't do anything for you.
Good luck and God bless.
I know how tough things are with your situation and not having a local NA chapter. I have been mixing in some AA meetings along with my NA meetings. With my history of alcoholism it makes sense. I used to go to AA and have a real bad attitude. I thought the meetings were sh$? So I didn't want to go. Now I realize it just wasn't my time and it was me who had the sh!& attitude and not the meetings. Point is, if you don't have a local NA meeting maybe you could try sitting in on a local AA meeting. The steps and format are the same and you don't have to tell anyone your there for H and not booze. It's just a thought, I really feel bad that your trying to get through the kick without any support. And you have to kick for your two babies.
I'm going to have 60 days next Tuesday and I'm getting excited about it. Also starting to find peace with my family situation. I think that splitting up is dead wrong for my kids but in the end if wife wants to split and won't even consider reconciling then there is nothing I can do about it. In the same way I surrender my life and will to God and ask him to lift my compulsion to use drugs I have to surrender my family situation to his hands. I'm getting better at turning my will over to God (2nd step) and I am becoming excited about the future he has for me. There's nothing real dramatic yet but I am starting to see God working in my life and I am becoming convinced that the future is going to be a better, more exciting place than the past.
I gave up alcohol in 2007 and stared using in 2010. I used to be pretty proud of the sober years but as time goes by I realize that I spent spent every day of those three years thinking about drinking. I was sober and people told me how strong I was to stop drinking but I was miserable on the inside. By thinking I could control the addict in me I set the stage for my relapse onto dope. When I think about what I want for the future I don't want to go back to drinking or drugs but I don't want to go back to being a miserable sober person either. That is the realization that makes me excited. If I work the 12 steps and stay in NA I can have a future where I can be happy without using or drinking and I am coming to believe that God has great things to come for me.
I hope you are still hanging in there Michelle and remember that using didn't do anything for you.
Good luck and God bless.
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Ok, I'm really stuck & these comments are scaring the sh*t out of me! I'm down to .5 mg every 3 days or so.. I'm NOT prescribed & have about 2 wks supply left if i continue doing this.. However i can NOT get thru that 3rd night without taking some, even the tiniest bit! Im SO done living this lifestyle. If.i could jus get thru that third night i feel like I will be okay. I have a strong mentality but the problem is, i have hardly any support as most of the ppl around me are still using or don't know what I'm going through. & i also have to work during this time as well bcuz otherwise i will have nothing without my job. Does ANYONE have any VALID advice as to how i can get thru that third night. I can handle w.d during the day bcuz i have no choice but to continue my life but the no sleep thing is what i really can't handle. I've tried clonidine.. Def didn't work. Benedryl .. Nope. this is the second week in a row that i have been doing the every 3 night thing.. I've changed the schedule that I'm taking them & finallyy not every day but i can't jus NOT sleep. SOMEONE PLEEASEE HELP ME!!
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hi i am 8 months clean after 15 yrs heroin,methodone(3yrs) then subs(6months), i am going to be honest there is no quick fix, it took me a good few weeks before i got a good nights sleep but please stick with it, i got some sleepers off dr for first couple of weeks, it will be the hardest thing you ever do but it will also be the best thing you ever do. take one day at a time and believe you are better and you can do it! i promise it is possible, i am proof to all you that say it isnt possible!
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