Fluctuating mental state, often unable to be myself or speak clearly

I can totally relate and hope to find a connection.

search truth about reality. occupy your soul. communicate with it. our minds are a little different than our brains.

Thank u finally a name to this madness I have lol:)

I've had the same thing my whole life and it sucks. I hate it so much I feel like I can't do anything about it, I hope I'll get over it somehow but I'm not sure it will go away, but still hoping it does.

Wow as I was reading through the thread I couldn't believe how many people were experiencing similar issues.  for me I always have known something was wrong with me and I've simply just tried to accept that's who I am.  I wonder if I should get help and haven't got a clue who to turn to.  I'm even ashamed to go to my own doctor.  As I was reading through I had to note down each of my similarities otherwise I'm sure I couldn't list them in one sitting.  So here they are:

Not living in the present

Mentally dulled/confused

Can’t think of words as I am talking

Complete avoidance of social situations

Don’t like to be judged, always feel like I am being judged

Can’t articulate

Can’t come up with stories for talking - no memories

Feel that I am boring

Feel that no one likes me

Feel alone

Mind wanders/can’t concentrate/lose interest

Mumble/can’t enunciate

Would rather be alone then go out in public

Lucky for me I am in a wonderful relationship, but without this relationship I honestly don't think I would want to be here..... Is that bad?  I know it sounds bad but that is just how I feel.

At work I'm good at my job, I can talk work but beyond that I simply suck.  Is there a magic pill? I wish there was...

OMG! I am experiencing the EXACT same thing and I do not know where to begin to get help, when I wake up every morning I say to my self I am going to slow down take a deep breathe and speak up speak out and be clear but I constantly find myself lost for words but is able to visualize it perfectly! I t

Social Anxiety Disorder.

I don't feel alone in this anymore, I've been dealing with a lot of these symptoms. I attribute it to stress, and an inability to handle things emotionally. When I get stressed, I feel I need to perform and my confidence is through the roof for days, but then comes the fall we're all familiar with. Bottom line is it falls on you to understand yourself, but here are some things that help me with these symptoms. I think this condition has to do with post stress exhaustion, general fatigue and an abundance of Cortisol in the system, so what, I believe has actually been working for me is taking a 1000mg vitamin C tablet daily - an efficient way to clear out cortisol. It also doesn't hurt having someone to talk to a parent, a significant other (or a psychologist) just someone to chat with helps a lot - I can't talk to my parents but everyone's situation is different. I've found that gratitude is a real mood booster, even when it's difficult to cultivate. Just look at what you have and be grateful for it, it doesn't have to be religious, it's purely a casual circumstance that you're even alive right now. Live fully, without fear and take a break when you feel exhausted. Nothing is so pressing that you need to worry about it, faith and confidence in yourself will help you greatly - you have to find a way to build yourself up. Think of a life goal, or a short term one you want to accomplish and think of it everyday, many times a day. Direct yourself toward it and use your mind to get it. - Read or watch on YouTube, "think and grow rich" Everyone is different, some people are just happier than others, embrace the bad times with the good.. you are alive after all, so live. Abounding love and luck to you all.

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Hey man I totally read your response and can completely relate. I am the one that accidentally hit the thumbs down icon------it won;t let me change it :) I think a lot of us are depressed and in denial. That is why people are having such luck with the psychiatrist. My mom would love it if I wen to the psych, but I'm totally against big pharma and am trying everything within reason to avoid their pills. Right now I am in the process of diet change and that involves cutting sugar and gluten along with dairy. Someone has mentioned Candida and many of us may have that. Depression is linked to candida along with many other symptoms. I have just started taking probiotics to try and combat the potential candida overgrowth, either way probiotics are good for you so it isn't going to hurt. Still searching for supplements that treat depression, There is an extensive list including: 5-htp, krill oil, multi-vitamin, d3.. I'm trying everything except for the 5-htp because it isn't clear whether or not it's safe. I've been working out for a few months now along with a healthy balanced diet and my "fog" still hasn't lifted. I'm not sleeping well at night and wake up as much as 7 times throughout the night. I've had many lucid dreams and tend to wake up after very dream I have. A lot of this is anxiety. Our minds are just running in overdrive so we are light sleepers and frequently wake ourselves up by thinking so much :) There are pro's and con's to every personality type. we can be very creative and often come up with solutions that most people don't think of. How can we bring our anxiety levels down while maintaining our creativity without medications? There are a lot of questions that need to be answered. It is comforting to stumble across this website and see so many others with the exact same problem. We truly aren't alone. Don't give up. Our answers will come to us when the time is right. We are all very beautiful people and are just suffering from the mind. Thanks for being here brothers and sisters! "We may not have it all together but together we can have it all!"-Wookiefoot

This is exactly how I would describe what I have gone through. It continues to affect my life.

Hey, I know your pain! What you described is almost 100% of what I've been experiencing my whole teen life. I'm 20 now, and as of now I'm finding it very hard to communicate, and function properly, I was having a very hard time with it tonight that's why I looked it up. Like you I have many moments of clarity but normally I fluctuate between 20-5%. And many times when I come out of the fog I wonder wtf was wrong with me when I couldn't express myself and function properly. I have been diagnosed with 8 different gene mutations, mthfr a12098c homozygus, cbs a360a homozygus, MAO-a r297r homozygus. VDR Taq, along with 4 other gene mutations I am less aware of. Recently I have started a new diet excluding all animal protein along with some vegetables, and it has been helping a lot with some other problems I have had. However I still feel this awful inability to express myself, acward social interactions, and just an inability to function, and I can feel it getting more severe as I write this message. I have noticed that it is ALWAYS acompanied by a rash, and my skin turning white every time in touch/scratch it, along with what seems to be allergic reactions, I am having allergy tests ordered from my specialist next week, i am hoping it is just an allergy or somthing I can fix, sorry if I'm all over the place or not making much sense, I'm really sorry your going through this and it really does suck.

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Maybe you're being too hard on yourself? "What did it?" sounds acceptable to me.

i have the same exact traits. Since age 14, i felt like i couldnt think clearly, sometmes about anything. I was confused 24/7 and didn't know myself at all. Had no hobbies, no future plans, and wanted to die all the times cause i felt i would die like this. It affected my life miserably, cause i couldnt talk about anything- so felt i would have no friends, job, future, money, family, etc. For 2 years, i smoked pot (age 18-20, now 21) and call me a psycho but I felt 10,000x able to think and enjoy life. It was the life that i had always dreamed of, and in that state wanted to live for ever. It made me feel like a genius and had dozens of friends and all. Well eventually i stopped 3 months ago and since the past month or so, this is happening again. I'm in a f*****g confusion state all the dmn time, and cant take new info into my brain. I met psychaitrists for over 5 years now, some say i do have a solid chance to get well, and other motherfuckers say that's how i naturally am. Well ive had depression and anxiety for 7 years now, and realllly wish i will be cured one day and have the felling of joy naturally that most others have,

Yes... I am 27 Year Male, and have the exactly same problem. Please tell me how can I overcome this....

Hi! I am a male 16 years old! and I too am suffering from the same situation metioned above, does such impaired thinking anything related to hormones ? well it feels very bad that one moment you feel like on top of the world and the next you realise you're a slave of life. Please help me get a solution to this, its been almost an year. Its affecting my persona and performance both em a hih school student and my board exams are going on it feels worse not able to concentrate with exam next day.

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