I am on the edge of giving up because of my depression and anxiety. I can't get medicaitons

I really need some help. I feel as if i cant fight the battle ive been fighting for so long. Its killing me and i know im just 15 but i feel as if i cant fight for my breathe anymore. And im willing to give up, i keep fighting but it gets harder. And what makes it worse is that i cant even tell anyone how i feel because i constantly keep it all to myself and feel alone. With my mental breakdowns, my life is usually at risk because its getting harder to control now, and i dont know what to do. I try asking for help but i cant get it, i cant get medication or get professional help for my depression or anxiety which is progressively getting worse as time flies by and i dont know what to do anymore, and i feel like when ever i need ,my friends the most, there never there or when i ask if i can do a small rant to them on how i feel and they say hold on im gonna take a shower or something and says then will talk, making me feel alone. Honestly i dont know what to do anymore, and i dont think im winning anymore, im sick and tired of faking how i feel and sick and tired of wearing a mask all the time. What should i do because im on the edge of giving up

Hi Alexia, sorry to hear you feel the way you do and that no one wants to help you, can I ask why you try asking for help but can't get it and why you can't get medication or professional help?

I know you've probably heard this a lot but the worst thing you can do is keep it all bottled up inside you, depending what country your from there are normally phone help lines you can call just to talk to someone who understands and will listen, I know it's not the easiest thing to do talk to a stranger about your problems but hey you made the first big step by coming on here and asking for help :) if you have friends then your not alone even if they are always busy when you want to talk, have you actually told any of them how you are feeling right now because I bet they would make a lot of time to talk to you if they did.

Don't feel like you need to give up because your so young and can get through this with the right help and have so much to live for even though you may not relise it, stay strong and if you want someone to rant to I'm here and will listen if it helps.

After you send 3 page messages you should be able to pm me if you would rather do that so not everyone reads what you say :)