I did it, YOU can do it too.

so after wasting a few years of my life doing all sorts of narcotics, anything from norco's to dilaudid and fentanyl....never did try heroin though, i'm finally clean. I was never really addicted though...it was all fun and games. 

it was all fun and games until i tried METHADONE, i heard it was a wonder drug and so mindlessly i took it, and giving the fact that i was going through a rough patch in my life, i continued to take it more often than not, until it became an every day habit. i never took large doses. but it was enough for my body to become dependent on it, I...as in my mind...never wanted to be on that devil of a drug.

Today is May 6, 2013. the last time i took methadone was March 11, 2013. It was a HELL of a process but it had to be done and it takes will power, courage, determination and discipline.

Sometimes lingering in the shadows will grant you the appreciation of light.

i feel better every single day, i work out, i eat healthy. i see better, i feel better, i hear better, i think better, i KNOW better. the process was a test unlike any test i have ever endured. it's hard, it takes you the edges of your mind and heart, it takes you to places you will never EVER want to return to, but once you pass...NOTHING can trump you. i speak from experience, i endured HELL and now ANY issue I face simply does not compare to the HELL i've been through, the hell that awaits some of you, or those that are currently enduring it, and finally ...congratulations to those that have won the battle with the possessive Devil of a drug. 

******notice i am being very vague in regards to my demographics, age, drug dosages, treatments, etc, i am doing this to keep you from being discouraged, i have tried everything on this site and many others, i did this alone, i did this with a combination of methods I've found on many a many sites, every BODY is different, learn what works and what doesn't, get to know your body and help it...easier said than done, i know but if you're going to get better, you're in for the long haul...might as well educate yourself. 

WHATEVER the drug, you can do this. it takes time and it is Not easy but it surely is worth it, that is a Promise. sadly, you will NEVER be the same person you were before drugs, and clearly you won't be the same person you were on drugs. you'll be a whole New individual, with purpose, and appreciation for this little thing we call LIFE.

-J.