Before I start I just want to say I don't harm myself or anyone around me . Okay ,got that out. So, lately I feel like I'm by myself even with people surrounding me all the time. I am an only child and I'm 15, but that doesn't affect my social life I dont think. I'm lost with them surrounding me and it makes me feel as if I'm playing a part in a movie. I have most things a girl could only dream for and I appreciate it, but sometimes I don't even care about it . My life is fake like a movie ( the plot) but the actors are real( me). I am living some type of life that I don't even experience. Like I'm JUST there. My mom even told me that I sometimes have a blank face..No emotions just blank , and she said as if I wasn't even LISTENING to her when she talked to me and my face was cold. Lifeless. That is super depressing isn't? I don't want to not feel. Like I said before, I feel like I'm living in a fake life. I really don't even know what is real. I remember as a kid going to an art class 20 mins from school in 3rd grade and going there for fun. I would show up and not participate and then they would put me under a table for time-out. Stupid idea but I remember those art class days clearly. I would even bring home things I made. I told my mom as a joke by telling her the story to bring up old days and she looked at me as if I was crazy. She NEVER took me to a art class when I was little. She and my father agree and say I just made it up, but it feels so real to me. How do I know what is my past knowing that? Can anyone just give my advice or reasurrance that I'm going to be fine? I don't even think I have a purpose for this , but hopefully there is an answer? Thanks-Katie