I want an hystorectomy

Hi everyone, I know how you all feel and I'm only 22. I had cervical cancer when I was 17 and none of this has ever been in the family. When I was 18 is when it started for me, I was on the patch for birth control and I ended up bleeding for a couple months before my doctor would switch me to something else. Then a month later it would start all over again. I was back and forth switching pills thinking it wasn’t strong enough and now I know it was strong enough to suppress my endo. Last summer I went on depo, I was gushing blood for a month then they tried giving me my shots more frequently, didn't stop it. I have been on Lybrel for 6 months and over the past three months I have just been gushing blood NON STOP and my cramping feels like someone is just tearing my uterus out everyday. I started seeing a different doctor than normal at my gyno and FINALLY someone orders an internal and external ultrasound, talked to the doctor about it and he said he didn’t see anything wrong in the ultrasounds but sent them out to be looked at. So he told me about a Laparoscopy so he could take a better look inside and they could do a D&C to remove the uterus lining that was gushing out of me. He said he wanted to wait a couple months to see if the bleeding will stop on its own I told him ABSOLUTELY NOT. I’m in college full time and I have a life, I can’t be dealing with all this pain let alone the NON STOP gushing, a super tampon wasn’t lasting more than 30 min. I wanted to know what was wrong so I can fix it and get on with my life, come to find out they said I had a tumor in my uterus when they got my ultrasound back and the operation would take care of it. So I had the lap and D&C done a month ago, went home after I woke up and I was gushing blood when I left the hospital, I was told there would only be light spotting since they were cleaning out my uterus for only a day or two tops AND mind you I have been on birth control to NOT get a period for 2 years (thankfully because it suppressed my endo enough till now). So a week later I’m still just gushing and I cant use a tampon because of possible infection. I call the doctor, "oh no that’s normal your due for your period" I go "I am on a pill to prevent me from getting my period, I was told it would stop my bleeding that’s why I had the operation, what’s going on?" She said to call back in a week if it hasn’t stopped and they would get me in. She called me 2 days later because she realized I shouldn’t have been bleeding. I go in a see a different doctor and she puts me on a birth control pill that is about 5 times stronger than normal birth control and has a special chemical in it to suppress endo. So I've been taking it and it’s been a month since my op AND I'M STILL GUSHING! I’m in so much pain some days I can’t go to class, I haven’t been able to ride my horses, I can barely move and pain pills don’t even work the slightest bit. I don’t want kids and I never have because they just aren’t for me. I go see my obgyn tomorrow and I’m going to tell him I want a hysto. He told me I only have a couple years to get pregnant and if I don’t I wont ever be able to, and I’m fine with that. I’ve looked up a lot of info on hysterectomies and I really think this is right for me. I cant take this any more I just want a normal life back and since I never want kids I don’t see an issue but I’m afraid he’s going to say no just because I’m only 22. I’ve had cervical cancer already and I’m just gushing and I’m in so much pain, I’m miserable. I wish I never had the first op because there was really no point. NOTHING changed except my cramps got worse. I realize it’s a big decision especially at my age but I can’t go on any longer living like this. The women on my moms side are ALL anemic and I’m scared I’m going to be also if something doesn’t stop the bleeding soon. I’m loosing so much blood I’m weak by the end of the day and I have headaches all day, I’m taking an iron pill every other day just to try to be safe. The gushing never lets up and I’m starting to think it never will. Its just so hard because none of my friends really understand and my parents tell the WHOLE family every little thing so I just kind of deal with it as it comes everyday at a time on my own. I'm ready for my Hysto and wish I never had the previous operation. I hope it worked out better for you. :'( :'( :'(