I want to talk about Labia reduction surgery

Uh, hi...

This is kind of embarrassing in a way, but I want to talk about Labia reduction surgery. First off, I'm only fifteen. I know I'm quite 'young' to some of you, but I've been dealing with his specific problem since I was very small, around seven or eight.

I've noticed that my lips hang down, and I'm not speaking in light of it. They are literally about an inch long if not more. They are disgusting, I can't even look at myself when I'm in the shower because I'm so appalled with my appearance.

I was raped twice in my life, once when I was five, and I remember vividly, bleeding and searing pains after that. Another time when I lived in Arizona when I was twelve. That's when it got really bad. I was ripped open and I didn't tell anyone, but after that happened they were just long and disgusting. They cause me a lot of pain when I sit and occasional rub raw on my underwear. Also even though I'm only fifteen, I would like to be sexually active one day with my boyfriend *We've been together for over a year* and he says he'll wait, but It's just so disgusting and I can't handle how it reminds me of my past and the discomfort, the insecurity etc.

Sorry to ramble a bit, but I wanted to explain this so I wouldn't be disregarded as just another shallow kid on this site. I would really like to be trimmed, with a parents' consent, and I have a job and would like to be told about the price? I live in Maine, right near the border of NH but I wouldn't know ANYTHING about where to go, what to do?

Thank you for anyone who answers and took time to read this; it means a lot to me!