Ever since I was little I always liked boys! Always had crushes and fell hard for these two guys but someone asked if I was a lesbian because I must of said it as a joke!! But I've always felt scared of them I think it's because my sisters would always make jokes about how 1 in 4 girls are an it would be me in that case seeing as my other sisters have straight partners. I used to masturbate gross I know! But it wasn't to any sex gender it was just how good it felt ! I watched porn once and it was a lesbian one and got turned on too, I think it was taboo because I felt gross watching it but it turned me on, I thought of a girl once and got turned on too. But also thought of a guy and got turned on as well. Now ever since someone asked if I was a lesbian I've lost pretty much all my attraction to boys from then on its been 5 months now and I've been obsessing over it, it has ruined my mind like you wouldn't believe! I'm the type of person to worry about irrelevant stuff. But yeah, I just want to know how to get it back and stuff and how to feel the same again? I mean I don't think I'm a lesbian?? I bloody well hope not because I don't want that life! But I'm the most unluckiest person you'll ever meet so its just probably my luck as well, I'm also so in creative and so just ew. I'm not manly I'm quite girly but I'm just the least happiest person?? So idk are they characteristics?? I don't write neat either!! My mum says I'm reading into things to much but I've never not wanted a boyfriend so much like I do now and I'm afraid ill never want one again:(( what I'd do to have my own mind back! Do you have any suggestions on how to stop this! Please help I'm 15 btw
The best suggestion i can give is stop stressing over it!
The more you stress the more you think about it the more your convince yourself you are lol
The more you stress the more you think about it the more your convince yourself you are lol
The thing is, it's been 5 months so I've convicted myself already.
Only because you keep thinking it
Just because someone asks if your a lesbian does not make it true. If they said you were a school bus would you believe that? NO. The seed was planted in your mind. and maybe you think some girls are hot, we all do. Your sisters are wrong about their statistics. They are just being sisters and teasing you. Please don't take that to heart.
If a guy asks if your lesbian they are either trying to make you prove it by sleeping with them or just being a jerk!!If girls say it is just to be mean!! I was asked that all the time because I was a virgin until I was 19. Guys would say I was a lesbian because they couldn't get me into bed. You know who you really are, as did I, But it did make me question my sexuality because I was young like you and I just was not interested in sex at all!!! But I was boy crazy! like mad!
I've seen girl on girl porn once ( I liked it a bit) and straight porn once( it grossed me out so much I puked). I am straight and no desire to be w/a girl but it did turn me on because it was sensual and sexy not crass and hard core gross like straight porn. I really do not like porn at all. Although you will be amazed at how many girls your age watch lesbian porn. I swear to you and they are not gay at all.
You are only 15 your hormones are going crazy, you feel like you're going crazy, emotions are out of control. Every teen goes through this! EVERY TEEN! Guys think about if they are gay and girls if they are lesbians. It will never change. it is human nature to think and feel this way. I have an obsessive personality and use to worry sooooo much what people thought about me, NOW I don't care. I am me and I like me. Just know who your are. and be proud of that. Good luck to you.