I have become very man like when it comes to men..I just came home from jail & it seems as though I can see through them..It seems to be about personal gain with men & I've noticed that I have picked up the same way of life..I havent gotten all sprung out on a guy because to me its all about what you have to offer me and how I can benifit from the situation..when a man becomes a headache I ignore calls,msg's and any other form of communication with them..im nice when with a guy yet im very blunt and i let it be known that they are replacable..b4 i went away I was talkin to a baller type guy and he used me for sex..he sexed me and gave me money but it was degrading not in public but just between us..yet it was still what it was..he got tired of me and he just stopped answering his phone..when i came back home we hooked up again but this time its been on my terms..i use him he still gives me what i want but he cant call me for sex or to see me its on my time and at times i dont even answer his calls..i just dont feel for him..then i talk to this other guy that has a girl and a child..and he is feigning to have sex with me yet i wont..I tease him but i dont give him anything..he likes me alot always calls and finds ways to see me but again its on my terms and i dont feel for him..then i have this other guy ive dealt with heavly b4 i got locked up we got close but i fell in love and it pretty much scared him away..he found a girl and left me destraught..i came home and we talk all the time but again its on my terms and i dont feel for him the way i used to..i talk to guys but i have sex with only one yet i have noone i feel for in a romantic way..i just use them to pass time i guess and to get what i want..it can go either way they can be around or they can go and i wouldnt feel anything different..i use to wear my heart on my sleeve now im wondering where my heart went