I am someone who suffers from this disorder and it is very hard to deal with. At the end of the day I hate myself for making my boyfriend put up with me. I love him so much and I don't know what to do. I tell myself all the time he wouldn't ever do anything to hurt me. I honestly believe that he loves me and wants to just be with me, but then when I am put in a situation around woman something snaps in your head and you can't help it. It just comes out. It's almost like you have no control over your owns thoughts. It is very hard to explain, and even harder to live with this disorder. I sometimes feel like everyone's life would be better off without me. If my boyfriend were to leave me I would go ever crazier, and then some how my head comes up with me thinking, "see he obviously didn't love me and wanted someone else." It sucks pushing your loved ones away, when your not intentionally trying too. You just have no control over your own head.