is this sexual harassment?

fallen18xx wrote:

i used to be friends with this girl who was the same age as me and was over her house hanging out in her room talking about family issues going on with me and started crying a bit, so she said everything was okay and gave me hug, then we started talking for about 5 minutes after this about who we like yadayadayada and other stuff and i was being sarcastic saying my chest was huge (i know i was immature) so she says no and grabs my hand and puts it on her chest which i didnt like so much and thought was a bit odd of her to do so i asked her to stop and she kept on pestering me to seriously feel it and moving my hand around so i kept on telling her to stop which she did and i felt sick after this so she asked me if i wanted to play dare game and me being stupid me said yes which i regret but i thought it was somthing that would be more normal b/c i just felt weird after that whole her trying to get me to touch her thing so i asked her what she wanted to dare me to do and she dared me to go cammando which i thought was a little weird but i guess i thought it was normal while playing a dare so i took off my underpants in the bathroom and put my pants on and then went to her room saying that i did it then she asked me what i was going to dare her to do i told her to run around the house like a crazy person but she said that wasnt a good dare and that she should hump the floor or somthing, after that i started to get scared and couldnt really find it in me to speak but when she started to i told her to seriously stop and she did but she said she knew i liked it because i was a pervert. i feel really sad about this whole thing and im not sure if its harassment though b/c i feel so stupid i mean i have ADD so i kinda dont catch on fast but really im so stupid i really hate myself looking back at this i feel like its my fault like i played along to the whole thing and it bothers me i know i didnt want that to happen i feel nausous and sick whenever i think about it not to mention embarassed and i dont have the guts to tell my parents. im really reallyy sorry asking you guys but im really confused is this harassment?

It's not harrassment, but what you went through has messed with your head. Sounds like she has her own issues to deal with. None of this was your fault and you were just rolling with it at the time. Find someone you can trust to talk to - they will tell you the same and you'll feel a whole lot better (your mum and dad will be crushed if you don't talk to them about something that has upset you this much. As much as it will make you all cringe a bit to talk about it, it will bring you closer - just trust that they love you and only want to help). I went through something similar when I was 9, I felt just like you did, but I kept it to myself. Not a good idea because you start listening to all the stupid voices in your head (eg it was my fault), so talk to someone, even a stranger on a helpline if you have to - this was a first step! It will help :)