I am a light weight when it comes to alcohol and on march 27, 2008, i was over my cousins and we played some drinking games and i drank a 40 oz of budlight and then a little bit of malt liquor. Then we didnt have any weed so we scraped a bowl and lit up the resin of mids. I probably took about two- three hits from this. The next day i felt really weird driving home and i got scared that i did something to myself that i will never be able to get back to my old self again. I had only smoked marijuana ocassionally for 6 months probably less than 1 a month if that and probably a total of 10-15 times. Ever since i havent felt the same as i used to and i am scared crapless that i messed myself up for good. I didnt go to the doctor until a month later and he ran blood tests and said everything was fine. Then he even did a mri of my brain and it was normal. I feel kinda distant from my old self. My memory has changed a little and i have to ask people to repeat themselves. I also look different visually at things like kinda like unfocused look. My brother has anxiety but i have never had it before. I do not feel anxious ever. Also the doctor gave me lexapro to test out and i just started taking that a week ago but i dont feel a whole lot of change. I was perfectly fine before all of this. I also feel this weird headpressure, it used to be right around my temples but then it changed to my right side of my head and on my crown of my head and my right ear also feels weird. I dont sound the same to myself when i talk. Before taking lexapro i used to cry alot because of this, but that has stopped. My right arm also doesnt feel like its right. My body doesnt seem to be lined up straight. I dunno. Its been two months now and im going to the psyciatrist next week to see what he thinks. My eyes have gotten better but i still dont think it is my original view before all of this. I went to the eye doctor even and he said i was fine. My cousin and friend who also drank and smoke didnt feel anything unusual so i dont think it was laced. Any ideas guys would be helpful.
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Hey man whats up? Let me tell you about my whole story. I was a regular smoker for about 2 years, i mean at least once a day. I finally decided to quit, when i did i was definitely not the same. I went through so much anxiety and panic attacks. I still have anxiety but i learned how to deal with it. The best thing to do is to stay focused on something else. It goes away eventually. I know that is way easier said than done but trust me on this one, it has been a year for me since i smoked and i am better. It takes a while i guess depending on the person but the deal is that it is at the end of the day all in your head. Now i know what your thinking, i only smoked a few times, but it doesn't matter because it reacts differently to different people. Marijuana being a psychoactive drug has the ability to change ones train of thought in the short term and for some in the long term depending on the person. I guess what i am trying to say is just find something to do with your time than to stew over how your body is acting up. Take up exercising and if you do exercise, next time get on the tread mill and see how fast your can run at a sprint and run until you are literally dieing :-). that will help you realize your still alive.
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