Well in the beginning everything was perfect! He was sweet and the most caring person ever. He sold coke in the beginning and had that under control. For the past year he has quit drinking because he gets out of hand. But I guess he had to replace it with meth. The first time I found it he said he was holding it for his "friend". I was stupid and believed him. Because I've NEVER done any kind of drugs. I only drink every now and then. Then I found it again and asked him to his face 3 times if he was selling it/ doing it. He lied and said he wasn't. Then I found the pipe in his bag, he said it was a lighter. He kept acting weird, loosing A LOT of weight his cheeks have started to cave in. His face is much paler. He would stay up for 2 days straight, he's suddenly become interested in hunting all night and guns and knives, people would call him non stop all night, he would have to leave at 2 am and he wouldn't get back until 6am. He was grouchy all the time, complain his back is hurting. We've stopped having sex as much as we used to. He became interested in fixing old trucks and never finished them. He was open to fix anything but never got it working. He's even started taking apart broken lighters and fixing them. Then one day while he was sleeping I went through his bag and found: the pipe, small bags, straws, scale, torch lighters, mr. clean eraser. (what the hell is that used for?) That was a year ago.
Today, he is still doing it. He said it would never be this long. He always says I don't understand because I've never done drugs. I HATE when he says that. He always uses it against me! He has lost contact with ALL his friends. but the few who do drugs. we don't go out at all, no dates no nothing! He never has time & always blows me off. He told me yesterday that I don't need to know his business and that I care too much about him. WTF.
How Do I help him? I just want him to be the person I fell in love with! Please help! I don't want to leave him I love him so much! we've been together for 2 years! and it kills me to see him like this. But is there nothing I can do? I've tried everything. Am I supposed to just leave him? :'(