Recently i became pregnant and had to do an abotion without my wish........it's actually and emtitional blackmail.......It's been three weeks now.........I am completely lost.........I really wanted to keep my baby.......My bf financial situations ......he doesnt want me to raise my baby on my own.....so he started to fight and it started as a emotional blackmail...........i cried cried..........did everything to save my first baby.......i never had children before i am 32 years old and i never become pregnant before.........so the feelings..........since i found out from the doctor.......it was already late.......i started to love this little miracle so much.....i wanted to see my baby........and raise my baby...........i had a trust to do anything ........but only one thing..........if anyone come and ask me to show the baby's dad i want him to stand there and say the truth.........that's all i asked him but he said no..........i even called his mom but couldnt talk .........wanted to meet his mother but he found out and started to scream at me so much.......so i didnt know what else to do...........i did this to my child without even wanted 1 percentage..............now.............… think i am so depressed.......i have no energy to work.......i am going to my work everyday.......crying in front of the computer..........when i come back home on the bus my heart cries a lot............what can i do to get my child back...........did i make a wrong decison for this society......and family...........he text me one sorry after all this.......but i started to get upset and started to send him lot of nasty texts again he is upset at me...........my heart says he is a really good person he didnt do this in purpose...........but what is my future..........will i ever get rid of this pain .........depression?