okay, im 18 and ive been masturbating for quite a while now. (btw im a virgin. and i wanna wait for the right guy. so please dont say, just go have sex)

i really wanna find a way to get to that point by myself.. ive explored myself lots and in many different way... i get that feeling where im about to "pee" and i really try to relax then and just let it happen. but then, that feeling just passes by.. it gets really frustrating cuz this happens every time..... ive read on other sites that this is a problem for many women, but ive also read that some women never can orgasm. that really scares me that i might be one of those women... anyway.. i have a vibrator and tried many things with it, but even that doesnt help me get the release..

please help!