Hi everyone --
I've read many things about opiate withdrawal on this website and I have took the time to use the search feature of the forums before I actually decided to post another thread.
With that being said before I get into my question let me shed a little information on my background:
I'm currently nineteen years old and am enrolled in college. I begin taking opiates about two years ago. I remember my grandmother having a monthly supply of about 120 7.5mg hydrocodone pills. I would take two of these only like once every week then I got question by my grandmother because a few were missing so I stopped all together. Went months and it was no problem at all for me. Then I started again popped maybe 30 of them in the period of a month but it was still no big deal at this point. Then I found Darvocet's in my grandmother's cabinet and some ultram which I didn't know at that time was a painkiller. I took all 60 of her darvocet's and I loved the way I felt. Then I started taking the ultrams and eventually got busted, again, and again, and again. Then I stopped all together again, no problem.
Two months after that I randomly remembered how great I felt on the pills. So I searched and found then. Started taking ultram, lortabs 10 and 7.5's for upwards of two years and somehow I got them every single day of my life. Then I started getting oxycontin 80's and popping 2 during a day. I couldn't fathom that I was throwing my guts up off of one.
Then I decided to stop again, only this time... I had set myself up for withdrawal. It's not the stomach pains or anything like that that is bothering me. The only thing that keeps me in this addiction is
A) The TERRIBLE RESTLESS LEG SYDROME - in my legs, arms, back, and shoulder blades and
B) The terrible aches.
I just can't seem to take the damn Restless feeling that I am having in my body, I've endured plenty of pain in my life but this feeling is just plain torture, it mixed with the aches has my days consumed with finding a pill for relief. Damn it, it's not because I want to get high, I want to get my life straight again. I've lost my girlfriend because of this sh*t and it's quite scary. I'm now unable to find pills ninety-percent of the time and I have no money now. Even when I go get them I lay down at night in fear because I know tomorrow all of the symptoms will be right back.
I told my mom and she got some tabs and has been weening me off of them. I'm down to 1 a day 1/2 - am 1/2 pm but that's not helping at all and this has been going on for weeks now. I simply can't take this anymore.
I've looked into suboxone but me and my family can't afford 200 dollars a week.
The only option that I'm left with is methadone it's starting to look like, but then again I don't want to have to go to a clinic everyday of my life just to be able to function.
I'm scared to death and I just want my damn life back. I need some advice. Please guys, please!!
I've read many things about opiate withdrawal on this website and I have took the time to use the search feature of the forums before I actually decided to post another thread.
With that being said before I get into my question let me shed a little information on my background:
I'm currently nineteen years old and am enrolled in college. I begin taking opiates about two years ago. I remember my grandmother having a monthly supply of about 120 7.5mg hydrocodone pills. I would take two of these only like once every week then I got question by my grandmother because a few were missing so I stopped all together. Went months and it was no problem at all for me. Then I started again popped maybe 30 of them in the period of a month but it was still no big deal at this point. Then I found Darvocet's in my grandmother's cabinet and some ultram which I didn't know at that time was a painkiller. I took all 60 of her darvocet's and I loved the way I felt. Then I started taking the ultrams and eventually got busted, again, and again, and again. Then I stopped all together again, no problem.
Two months after that I randomly remembered how great I felt on the pills. So I searched and found then. Started taking ultram, lortabs 10 and 7.5's for upwards of two years and somehow I got them every single day of my life. Then I started getting oxycontin 80's and popping 2 during a day. I couldn't fathom that I was throwing my guts up off of one.
Then I decided to stop again, only this time... I had set myself up for withdrawal. It's not the stomach pains or anything like that that is bothering me. The only thing that keeps me in this addiction is
A) The TERRIBLE RESTLESS LEG SYDROME - in my legs, arms, back, and shoulder blades and
B) The terrible aches.
I just can't seem to take the damn Restless feeling that I am having in my body, I've endured plenty of pain in my life but this feeling is just plain torture, it mixed with the aches has my days consumed with finding a pill for relief. Damn it, it's not because I want to get high, I want to get my life straight again. I've lost my girlfriend because of this sh*t and it's quite scary. I'm now unable to find pills ninety-percent of the time and I have no money now. Even when I go get them I lay down at night in fear because I know tomorrow all of the symptoms will be right back.
I told my mom and she got some tabs and has been weening me off of them. I'm down to 1 a day 1/2 - am 1/2 pm but that's not helping at all and this has been going on for weeks now. I simply can't take this anymore.
I've looked into suboxone but me and my family can't afford 200 dollars a week.
The only option that I'm left with is methadone it's starting to look like, but then again I don't want to have to go to a clinic everyday of my life just to be able to function.
I'm scared to death and I just want my damn life back. I need some advice. Please guys, please!!
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Hi! I know exactly how you feel. I have been there. I tried doing the same thing weening off of lortabs but didnt stop and ended up taking oxy's for another year. So I decided to go cold turkey and got so sick I had to go to dr and then hosp. The dr put me on chlonidine and nausea meds. I still felt the withdrawals but not as severe. You need to go to to dr or even hospital. They will not refuse you service if you dont have money. You cant do this on your own. I know trust me your going to keep going back to square one with the withdrawals. You need them out of system so you can start getting well so your body wont crave them. Its an every day battle to focus on something other than pills. But once your through with the awful withdrwals you wont want to relive it again. You need to stop before you lose so much more than your girlfriend like possibly your life. So go to hospital it will make it s much easier. Its not showing ur weak by seeking help. People cant do it alone.
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Suboxone is a miracle drug as far as relieving the horrible symptoms. You're in the right frame of mind, but like me you have to push it back and realize the symptoms won't last forever (easier said than done). But you're going to have to allow time for recovery. The only way I knew I could get off for certain was to burn all of my bridges, no way to get medication anymore.
I also got lucky and found a clinic to support people without the income of forking over thousands of dollars to get healthy. Search all you can and don't stop until you find a place that will write you Suboxone. Do everything you can to avoid going on Methadone. Methadone leads to further addiction and it's a vicious cycle. Get out now while you can and maybe you'll be spared the long term effects of withdrawal.
Hope this has helped!
I also must mention that "taking" pills that aren't prescribed to you is a serious offense. If you are arrested or caught with pills without a prescription, you will be charged a felony for each pill. Kick it while you can.
I also got lucky and found a clinic to support people without the income of forking over thousands of dollars to get healthy. Search all you can and don't stop until you find a place that will write you Suboxone. Do everything you can to avoid going on Methadone. Methadone leads to further addiction and it's a vicious cycle. Get out now while you can and maybe you'll be spared the long term effects of withdrawal.
Hope this has helped!
I also must mention that "taking" pills that aren't prescribed to you is a serious offense. If you are arrested or caught with pills without a prescription, you will be charged a felony for each pill. Kick it while you can.
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Another thing about the drugs illegaly gotten, don't think for a minute that Mr. Turnkey is going to feel to sorry for you while you're withdrawing in a cage. I'm not saying they're cold hearted but its a hard game you're playing.
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