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I am a 15 year old teenage girl who has been dealing with depression and anxiety for the last 2,5 years. I've been searching answers on everywhere but I can't be sure of any answers that I found. So I decided if I tell my own thought to people maybe the others can help me. I know there is a lot of people who feels the same as me, yet as I said, I can't be sure. When I was in 8th grade I had literally no boy friends - just friends- All the boys in my class was just making fun of girls and I was a little shy so I wasn't talking to any boy. Except maybe two of my friends that I knew since I was a child. I always had to hang out with girls and I really like being around girls because I feel like I can be more honest to them and talk about my problems. What I am trying to say is I don't really know if I am attracted to boys since I was never been able to be with them. I look at boys in the streets and like ''Yeah, he is cute'' and I want to get married and have kids -of  course with a boy- I also want to say that I suffer from OCD and personality disorder. 3 months ago I saw a YouTube channel of a lesbian couple and I watched one of their vlogs and I thought to myself ''Being a lesbian looks nice, you can be comfortable with her, etc,etc'' I started listening to LGBT songs and with that my personality disorder being it, I started feeling like I am a lesbian. The fact is I want to be straight. I never thought of myself as a bi or les since now. I used to watch porn but I'm definetly not addicted and I was watching straight before I started to watch lesbian. I kinda feel like lesbians are more gentle in that situation -the porn situation- also makes me think that I can be like that. I am afraid to be a lesbian (not that I have any problems with bi's or les') but thats just who I am and who I want to be.And I'm also a religious person but I know that I want to be straight because I want to, not because I'm scared of hell. My question is; do you think I am a bi-or les- or it's just puberty? Thank you all for your answers.

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I think you are spending way too much time trying to analyze yourself. Stop worrying about it and do the things you like. You will find a boy who you like or he will find you. Or if it turns out to be a girl, so what?

 

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your going in circles .you are who you are and nothing and nobody is going to change that .you will learn more about yourself as you grow mentally and phyically
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how r u doing now
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