so where to start when I was a baby my mom gave me wine I started smoking cigarettes at 13 years old I also started smoking weed at 15 then at 16 I started using meth which destroyed my life i started ditching school and eventually got kick out did graduate. I continued using meth smoking ciggaretts weed and drinking. when I say this I mean I did this everyday for years. a couple years ago I quit using meth I'm 29 now so like 27 years old I would say. but replaced it with heavy drinking Dailey. so now I have been drinking and smoking cigarettes everyday for two years. I have been having pain in my throat now for like 6 months. I have been to the hospital many times I mean e.r. and the always tell me it's just infection or gerd but I'm kinda ashamed to let them know how much I drink and smoke I fear that it might be cancer and I don't know what to do and the worrying just makes it worse I start drink and smoking more I've tried alcoholics anonymous but it isn't working. I'm just so depressed and scared any advice?