replaHello Friends,
It's Gary, the cat that started this thread or topic as they call it here. I didn't want to reply and I have purposely not replied for my own selfish reasons. As the guy that started this thread being so scared to go through the horror that I had read and researched I was looking for help, someone that could say "do it, you'll be fine" & I got that, it helped tremendously & I was so excited to share my pre surgery regimen that I personally did 2 wks before going under as well as taking emails from Maggie and even praying for her to be well.
Before surgery I felt great, lost 10lbs, my butt wasn't really hurting the rest is history (Please refer to my early post or at least the day after surgery & the next post).
Like I said, I have purposely not replied to any of these great stories for my own personal reasons. Here they are, being the guy that started this & being where I am at this second pains me, it hurts that I can't be healed too. I know, sounds ridiculous and like I'm a total jerk, I know and I struggle w/ it but I'm sad and alone in this. I have horrible news and don't want to scare anyone from living a great life like you all will but I have to!
I'm not healing well, I am the horror we all read about. I have been in horrible pain, I have to skin tags after the surgery. I feel my Dr, is a liar and can't trust him. When I told him at my 3 wk check up that I had tags he said "No, everything isn't skin tags, this is granulation tissue and will fall off". LIE!!! I also told him that my bowl movements are excruciating and torturous, so he looked at me and said man you healing so well, it's on the 3 week mark come back in 3 more weeks and you'll be done!!!!!
Well, so I went back last Tues. I tell still my BM's are the worst thing ever. Every morning I have 2, first one's lately have been hard as rocks and feel like trees coming out of me & only come out after I almost faint pushing. The bleeding well it's monumental! Then my second one is the size of a noodle & very little comes out but my body pushes like it's a train and that 2 bleeds! New developments have been the hard stools and now my 2nd one nothing comes out, but it feels like I'm going to only notice what I feel is blood "squirting" out of me and it is excruciating! He looks at me and says "Well Gary everything looks good on the out side nothing major concerns me but what your telling me doesn't make sense? You shouldn't be in this pain. "All I can see is that you have 2 skin tags?" I'm like "Skin tags are you freakin' kidding me?????? "WHEN I ASKED YOU IF THEY WERE SKING TAGS YOU SAID NO NOT EVERYTHING IS A SKIN TAG AND THAT THEY ARE GRANULATION TISSUE!!!!"
Let the covering up begin!
Guys first accept my apologies for my feelings of envy and jealousy. I am happy your all ding well I wish I was too. I am so afraid of rectal cancer and I feel alone, guys I'm not doing good. I am a full time musician (drummer of course) & haven't worked since july 7th. I have a newborn daughter Ruby Grace as well as 8 yr old Josiah & 16 yr old (today) Hannah. My wife can't work either cause she is still having to help me around the house as well as be chef, chauffeur, laundry lady, maid, etc! We have had no income what so ever and are on the verge of loosing our home. This is where I'm at in my healing!
Oh I failed to mention what the Dr said during his cover ups. I have to go to a colo-rectal specialist to get examined to have my anus surgically opened. Apparently at my last visit what he noticed was he tried to insert the tip of his pinky and couldn't even get it in. My anus/sphincter has healed almost closed completely which is why I am in such agony constantly.
I AM SO SCARED I CAN'T GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN!!!!
God Bless and be well, G
Wow Gary...I am so sorry we have seemingly hijacked your original post because it seems to be getting the most attention and I am truly sorry you have to read about how "great" we are all doing when you are not. You truly helped all of us through this but unfortunately it seems only we were the beneficiary!! I agree with Crimson...see a Colon/Rectal specialist ASAP. Mine was also a highly trained specialist with over 30 yrs experience. If you cannot trust your doctor and you are continuing to struggle and are in pain - you need to find a new one. Please know you and your family will continue to be in all of our prayers. Maggie
Hello Friends,
It's Gary, hope your all doing really well! I wanted to fill you in on my progress. Well, there has not been this is my 9th week of recovery and am in brutal pain still. Having anywhere from 2-5 BM's a day still on a strict eating regimen full of fiber and other supplements but last week I received the worst news of all.
The reason I'm not healing is because I have "Anal Stenosis"! I am so saddened by this news. I have been going through this since july 10th. It's bad guys, I have scar tissue that is making my rectum & anus heal almost shut. The pain during a BM is torturous and this recovery could be as long as 12 months.
I'm so hurt, so sad, so depressed! I'm the sole provider for my family. I have 3 children one of which is only 6 months old. I can't even be an active parent to my newborn because I'm in such pain......
God bless,
-G
Gary, sorry to hear about the stenosis. I think you should see a second colo rectal surgeon to see if they have other suggestions on how to treat this! What else you interim to get relief. Today is a moderately better day for me so far. Watching what I eat, lots ofwater, stool softeners and laxatives are still key for me, along of walking and plenty of rest. Hoping to try to go back to work in 3days, but a potential bad storm may alter that plan. Will not be able to sit at a desk all day so expect to work shorter days to start.
I am now almost at six weeks since surgery on Oct. 9, 2012. Overall healed pretty well. Only 2 small skin tags and dr. Wll deal with those in 2 months. That is huge progress from the mess of external and internal hemorrhoids that I had. First BM of the day seems to be a challenge in that does not always happen before say 08;30 am. I am going in to work a bit later right now so I can have time to deal with first BM of the day at home. I now have no blood during or after a bowel movement.Still swear by Cottonelle wipes back there. Toilet paper just seems a bit rough but can use it back they're if desperate now, which I could not do 2 weeks ago. I stopped sennekot at about week 4 and now just on stool softeners 2-3 times a day. Still eating high fiber cereal and lots of salad every day, and limiting things like cheese or red meat. Still drinking about 10 glasses of water per day. If I skip high fiber cereal or do not have enough water, then BMs get uncomfortable. Sitting in a chair at work too long starts to hurt or cause pressure, so still using a pillow at my desk and in car. Not a donut cushion now, just a pillow for extra extra padding. I sometimes have to stand up for a bit during long meetings. Some issues with gas in evenings before a bowel movement, and when the urge strikes I only have a few minutes to get to bathroom, but BMs are pretty fast.I sometimes use a squatty potty to help bend knees and release sphincter if BM seems like it it might be large. For me recovery was difficult first three weeks, and not really able to be at work until 4 weeks, but definitely worth it. I will always have to be careful with diet, more water and more walking. I never want to suffer again like I was before. Make sure you get a colo rectal surgeon if you are going to have hemorrhoidectomy. How are all of you???