Hi. I hate to say this but I have bipolar depression and I cut myself during my episodes. I sometimes don't even know that I am doing it until afterwards. I need to stop but I get spacey and it is like taking a nap. I never remember the action of cutting but sometimes I feel the urge. After I feel really bad. I am from the Netherlands and was raised in Spain, I am 16 a nd have lived in America for 3 years now but I still struggle with the language and I get made fun of. I am called fat (I am 5'7" and 135 lb), lazy, stupid, worthless, am told to kill myself and worse. I want stop cutting but cannot alert parents or siblings. What do I do?