My mom is abusive and she is always pointing out my frizzy hair and how I need to loose weight even though my friends say I'm not fat, I can't help but think I disappoint my mother because of how I look. I seriously hate my life. I never told anyone this before, but since you don't know who I am I guess I'm free to let it all out. When I was six years old my parent went out on an anniversary dinner and had my uncle babysit me, I'm 13 now and almost 14 and I still remember that day so clearly, my uncle said that he wanted to give me a bath for bedtime and I said no because my mom was always telling me "nobody except for me and your father can see you naked because we are your parents" and stuff like that. My uncle started to get angry and then he hit me and told me that if I didn't take my clothes off then he would hurt my mom and dad. I was scared and took off my clothes and then he took his clothes off and he touched me and made me touch him. Then he said that if I told anyone that he would kill my parents. My mom was always a very loving person until I got to middle school. My mom would start to hit me and I started having dreams about what my uncle did. All of my problems started to get too stressful and I started to cut myself as a coping method and it worked. I told myself when I started that I wouldn't let it get out of control but after the first cut I ever made on myself, it was already unknowingly out of control. I kept on telling myself that I could stop whenever I wanted but it wasn't until I tried to stop that I realized I was out of control. Now I have no idea what do do anymore. I guess after all of my ranting I only have one question, What do I do to stop?
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