Subutex and Opiate Withdrawal is HORRIBLE, here's my story...

I have read your story. And what a story It is. I will say this, " one passage in that story is why you failed at all your attempts to stop."
When you wrote " god will never give more to you than you can handle," And you did not believe that?
If I wrote my stories it would blow you away and it would take a book to do so.
I was an upper lever manager for a very large company for 19 years and for 35 years there hasn't been a pill on the prescription market or street that I have not taken.
While at work I would be taking Xanax 360 per month ate them like peanuts you know "bars" and I would run out before that month was up, I found more and wouldn't miss a beat at work or take a day of work.
I also loved "soma 350" I would eat 8 at once until I did what I called the "crab walk." Oh and the Xanax, After I got off work I would go straight to the bar and crave "tequila" (straight), I drink it like water, No I was still walking upright and talking straight but oh so angry. believe these short stories because I could write a book but I don't have time.
Anyway, here's how I see it as it applies to me.
When I rode my "train" sometimes for 3 months to 6 months, there became a point when I needed to be "derailed" from that train.
No Doctor's, not substitutions, just me, my faith and I, oh yes and the most important person "God." (the withdrawals were horrible and almost killed me everytime)
I could make the hair on your head and every other part of your body stand straight up if I could tell you my history and how many times Jesus has saved my life. With god all things are possible. No Dr's knew what I was going through, (I was truly overdosing everyday between the pills and liquor). I would have never admitted anything to them what I was doing.
I did this to myself for the last 35 years on and off for various reasons, so I figured I needed to handle it myself, and I did.
And yes I have a "nice" car and my husband has a fine "truck" and that makes me no better than the next, I just choose to handle mine differently.
I've walked the line of death many times (on purpose I was such a daredevil), and all I had was my faith and believe me, when you call out for "god" to help you, he is there you just didn't trust and have enough faith brother.
Through another "miracle" on April 4th I found out in the most strange way (another story for another time) that I had heart disease I had a 70 percent blockage in my "Lad Descending" ( the widow maker) I had no clue, because all the Norco was masking my symptoms I.E. respiration, blood pressure, no chest burning. I truly did not now I was sick because I couldn't feel my body. Dr said " I had about a year left before I dropped dead."
I am a 50 yrs female who has carried heavy burdens for 35 years, those burdens were finally lifted on Easter Sunday 2014. See, I've have always had the "faith" but every time he helped me I just said "thanks" and moved on and this time I did not say thanks and move on.
I said "thank you Jesus for once again saving my life." And this time I'm not moving on, like I've done before, I'm going to keep thanking god for giving me my 20th chance at life. And I will never put another pain pill in my mouth unless it's aspirin (and yes I cold turkeyed it on March 4th 2014 7 years of norco and the last 8 months 90 every 6 days for 8 months, yep wow!)
(oh how I would love to tell my life it's truly unbelievable)
. Do not ever think that Doctors can fix everything.
sometimes you have to be flat on your back so your can see straight up. You have a great story, but I so wish I could tell you mine just to "inspire" you so when you feel weak you will remember.
I hate to write, there are years that are left out and current events that have taken place as well.
maybe one day you will hear my story in full. I know it would make a best sellers list if I could just write my life. I hope you are well now and I hope you have a blessed life.

Thanks for sharing been addicted to codeine for 5 yrs now ended up on 35mg of methodose now I am going cold turkey I just wanna die right now from the pain its going on day four and I just want something pretty sad I ended up this way but I gotta stay strong I guess bein blazing weed last few days but my body and legs are sore I hate this feeling never ever wanna feel this ugly again not worth it thanks again for sharing gave me strength threw this ordeal.

Thank you, for sharing parts of your struggle with addiction. To be completely honest i have to admit ive been struggling now for 15yrs on n off with a horrible addiction to opiates.Its hard to fathom that so much of my time has been consumed with thoughs,actions,all the emotions and feeling that go along with it just for that all seducing feeling that take over my being at that moment it never lasts i wish it could.Im lost ive hurt everyone close to me i dont know where to start.

Well good. Luck especially with that god. I took suboxone for years and never paid any attention that it could be habit forming, it a great drug and I was to take 3 a day or 24 m.g. But never abused the drug and never had a problem getting off it. I have in the last 6 months used black tar, crack, powder, meth, norco, soma, and Xanax now I have not had a drink in 30 years and as bad as I was with booze I am the best drug taker in the world. I use drugs for fun not because I had a unhappy childhood. The problem I see is not the drug but the person. Most people are not able to see or tell the truth so addiction. I spent over 7 digits on drugs in the last almost 50 years. I have kicked narcotics at least a couple dozen times and it was always the same pretty lousy 120 hours but I am no m***n I knew this long before I slipped the pointed needle towards my best shot spot to watch it register the blood and narcotic that would turn a beautiful color of crimson and then I would boot it getting the taste in my throat long before it hit my brain. As time went by I found that if I wanted to do drugs I could only do them every so often maybe twice a month or once a week all the other time I eat a great diet and exercise usually cross fit and walking long distance. Most info people give about drugs is bogus

Keep strong brother, I'm getting read to start this perilous journey before it cost me everything. I'm on a legal prescription for herniated disc and a surgery and another r surgery to remove a you our in my spinal fluid sack 18 and 10 years respectively been on a variety of oxy for 14 years and I'm trying to ween myself of now , no job no money just faith! I tried before and gave up 24 hrs in. Everyone wants to help if you have insurance but no insurance then get lost buddy it's about money not care.
Peace , S.

The only way to taper off a drug is to do it SLOWLY. It took me 5 1/2 months to taper off oxycodone, which was prescribed by a doctor. One doc wanted me to do it in a couple of months. The idiots have no idea what people suffer when the taper is too fast!!! You also need nutrients to support your system while tapering. The only organization that REALLY knows how to taper slowly is ''Point of Return''. I used their method and had very little trouble. Please, do it right and avoid needless suffering!

Not to discourage anybody, but Subutex withdrawal are horrific, (well at least for me), about two weeks of pure agony and torture, now i'm on my 16th day off and it starts to get slowly better. I just wish good luck for all people, it' takes courage to do it, but it's really worth the pain.

Hey R, ur story I amazing, mines identical. How are you getting on?

Can I ask how you tested negative for opiates the day after you took 15 500 mg Vicodin. I guess this is why people say don't believe everything you read on the Internet. But good story!

I am on day 15. I'm in an 30 day recovery center. I take 18mg of Subtex ,400MG of Gabapentin, the first drug is to help with withdrawal from the opiates. The second is for anxiety I take one every 8hrs and then a Trazodone 100MG at night. What do you think??
S

Thanks for ruining it and making it very difficult for those of us who are not addicts and used our pain medication responsibility and not once abused or misused our medications it's irresponsible people like you that get praised and coddled while people like me suffer it's almost like your proud of yourself for your reckless and selfish behavior shame on you sir you are a coward in my opinion for turning yourself in for the crimes you committed and not having to face any serious consequence

For NOT turning yourself in