Suicidal thoughts because of having bad relationships with everyone in my life

Someone359615 over a year ago

I am 13 years old

My birthday should be in few days

But i dont want it

I just want to be alone forever

I had bad reletion ships with everyone in my life

My brother would be very rude to me and my mom tried to chocke me once

I hate being around people i want to kill my self

There is nothing i can do

My life is sh*t and it always will be

And golden future is BS

i have no one in my life that cares about me

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey someone, I am sorry to hear about your situation and how you are feeling. How long have you been wanting to kill yourself for? have you ever attempted it before? Have you ever tried talking to anyone about it before making a post on here?

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Guest over a year ago

I had suicidal thoughts for a year now and I haven't attempted it yet. I talked about it with my mom but she won't take me seriously I always have to make myself look like someone I am not and I am not allowed to be me.

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey again, are you a guy or a girl? You say your. Not allowed to be who you are? Can you explain that to me? Does your dad hit or choke you or just your mom? You are at a difficult age because your body is changing making you feel a lot different ways and that makes living harder especially when your family is not suppportive of you.

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Guest over a year ago

they got divorced when i was 3 months old
and my step father died in a car crash
And my grandpa someone i cared about died infront of my eyes
And i a boy
I want to be someone that i really am. doing stuff that i like
discluding drinking and smoking
But i can't my Mom gets really angry when im not how she likes it and she would beat me up

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

I'm so sorry you have certainly seen more at your age than someone should see in a life time. When did your stepdad and grandpa pass away? With all these things going on it is understandable that you feel depressed and suicidal but ya know what? You are special and worth something :) and there is help out there. What type of things do you enjoy doing that your mom gets mad at you for ?

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Guest over a year ago

My stepdad died few months ago
and my grandpa died few weeks ago

I like to just be me
Do dangerous stuff
Like climb up high buildings
Drive motorcycles
and at my age i shouldn't be doing that i know
but whats the point of life if im not going to make something out of it

But when my grandpa died i just want to be alone
With no one
at all

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey again so let me assure you that how you feel and the activities you like are normal especially at your age and with the big losses that you have experienced. Everyone grieves differently some want to be around loved ones and friends , others want to be alone. And that's ok. But in time things should get back to normal and you should not want to kill yourself. You have too much potential and life to end it at such a young age man..... also I can see why your mom gets mad with your activities like climbing tall buildings or riding motorcycles lol she is concerned for your safety..... but this is still no reason to physically abuse you. When she hits you where does she hit you and do you ever get bruises ? Also where do you live are you from the US or a different country? Laws about abuse vary from country to country

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Guest over a year ago

switzerland
and it is illegal
and yes i've bled many times
i just dont feel like there is anything left for me to do
its like
i dont know what to do with my self
I can't really explain it

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Well if your mother is that abusive you should talk to someone about it and see if something can be done to fix it. Do you have any friends or trusted adults like teachers you can talk to? It is not right for you to be in this situation. You deserve to get help and Be happy. Another reason why your feeling and emotions are off right now is probably due to puberty..... during this time not only sonpur body's chance (which often causes us enough confusion and stress alone) but also our emotional and brain change and develop too. This can cause some imbalances in the chemicals of your brain that control how you feel until they sort themselves out.... by the way have you had your birthday yet?

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Guest over a year ago

I dont trust anyone ânymore in my life
And you are probably right with the puberty stuff
And now my birthday will be at 13th

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey someone I'm sorry for the delay in reply I've been really busy lately.... how have you been feeling lately? You say you don't trust anyone anymore, why is that? Do you have any friends about your age that you hang out with? Also I know puberty can be a very confusing stressful time so if you have any questions or concerns about it feel free to send me a PM or just post on this thread and is Be glad to help you out

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Hey how are you doing ?

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Guest over a year ago

not good :/ Don't feel like doing anything lately

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obscure seaplane over a year ago

Aww I'm sorry to hear that man.... school should be starting soon for you right? Do you think that is a good thing so you will be around your friends more ? Has your mom been abusive lately? Also when is your next physical with your doctor? Perhaps you can talk to him/her on how your feel.

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