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I think that I have this luck because I was able to get rid of my ecstasy addiction that lasted for a couple of years. Those feelings that I was getting while I am on this are now something that I can't describe you. Every time those ecstasy effects made me feel so powerful for four or five hours, and after that, I felt so miserable. Poor. Pathetic! Anyway, maybe it would cost me a life now because I never planned to stop taking it. Especially when I was going out to some parties, festivals, etc. Soon, I was diagnosed with damages on my liver. That was one thing that "woke me up" from this night mare. I find out that all users, especially those who are using this very often and for a long are risking rotting their lives and damaging their hearts and brains.
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It wasnt just pills it was M.D.M.A to .
I have had some stuff happen to my heart it really scared me !!! i thought i was gunna die it was that intense. i had double dropped 1 night and i was just comin up that weird feelin u get just before it kicks in then all of a sudden its was like my heart stopped or it was beatin so fast that it felt like it had !!!
It was like i could feel the blood drainin out my hole heart and my body tensed up i couldnt move it hurt so much.it felt like i was bein sucked in i know that sounds weird but thats wat it felt like .
This went on for a few minutes then all of a sudden it was like the biggest rush i have ever had and i was fine ever since then it has happened a few times but never as long and so powerfull like it was.
my friends told me it was nothin to worry about . but they dont understand how much it hurt .
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PLEASE NEVER DO THIS DRUG
people tell me all the time. they have tried it and hated it.. but please hear me when i say this... you can get addicted to this drug.. different strokes for different folks...
GOD bless.
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If you are young and have a brain do not use extasy and advise all of your friends to read this before they make their choice.
I decided to use it when I broke up with a girl I was madly in love with, i'm only 19 and should have a future and many more wild relationships but because of this drug my body and mind no longer function perfectly and in unison. And in many minor ways I am damaged PERMANENTLY, and I live every day in the constant knowledge and fear that as I get older things can only get worse.
NEVER TAKE THIS DRUG IF YOU VALUE WHO YOU ARE.
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and i also have been smoking marijuana since summer of 2004 and yes i do smoke weed everyday and smoke weed while rolling.
what i have learned from taking ex is that its not something to do if you think your going to have a blast.
because the title that we 'ravers' have about that we are the most fun people to be around and all that.
thats all jst a cover for ex. the real truth about ex is that it wil f**k up your mid body and feelings!
trust me.
if you are reading this and you have never experimented with ex then i know i might sound like a hypocrite and i hate hypocrites but i finally understand what my friends and family have been trying to tell me.
but its your life and you make your own decisions.
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Crazy thing was, I never paid for my pills. I figure Ill just buy it bundles and thats why I can over-exceed the amount.
Last year, my bestfriend died because of an overdose. I wasnt there. He was with some of his other friends and after the news was broken down to me. I didnt want to touch another pill but the boredom of life makes me. Im not addicted. I just view things differently when Im on it. Nothing bad ever happens to me when Im taking these pills and maybe thats why I never wanted to stop. Just until 2 days ago. I did a good 10 pills. two every hour. I am only 117lb. 5'8. I have very high metabolism.
2 days ago, after popping that amount. I started to get dizzy. when i smoke a cig, my chest will feel closed in. I couldnt breathe for a good 10 to 20 minutes. I would weeze like I have asthma. I was sort of afraid to smoke in case it happens again but I did it anyways, THREE times and again my chest keeps getting tighter and tighter. my skin feels clammy. I would be hot and cold. I feel like Im sweating but im not. Today, I thought after getting some sleep, I would feel better but when I got up. Ill get so dizzy that Ill find myself holding on to a wall for support. I would black out constantly but havent fainted. I couldnt stand for too long without the room spinning or fading into darkness. Usually when im on the pills, I am so happy but now I just feel depress but it doesnt stop me. After all Ive just typed up. I am ready to go pop some more. my body tells me im ready for another dose.
Why am I being so stubborn and whats wrong with my body? Like I said, Im not addicted but it gets boring without it.
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I asked for my deceased father to save me and take it out of me. I told him I'd never mess with that again. Water was pouring from my body. Luckily two friends came over and stayed with me. They mess with it a ot. They told me they tried the star one the week before and were crying and terrified. They almost died also. When I asked my father to take it away...it was gone instantly. I had just taken it 20 mins before. It should have been gone in 10 hours. He won't save me again.
Never again. I lost alot of weight. Didn't eat for 2 weeks. Every time I think back to that night...and the dark place I was going to...I cry. Stupid kids wake up. Learn and live. My friend messed with it for years. She is a huge bimbo now. Sometimes she acts like a child. She's not the same person. It took 10 years for it to mess her up the way it has.
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Anyway, I've never been right since that night and I'm not sure if I ever will be. I can't concentrate properly, my short term memory is shite, my body randomly shakes and my jaw is always tensing up. Instead of taking pills and having a good time now I have to take handfulls of meds to keep me going. Beta blockers for an irregular heart beat, anti-depressants, migraine tablets, painkillers. I'm always dehydrated because my kidneys aren't that efficient so I have to drink at least 6 pints of water a day. I cant even drink alcohol anymore without ending up ill in bed for days. My bodys just completely knackered. I cant work, I cant even walk down the road without getting out of breath, my life is a complete mess thanks to those little pills. I admit that its part my fault for being a mash head but they're definately addictive if only in a mental capacity. For anyone wanting to try out pills, trust me, stay away! And not just pills drugs in general theres better things in life then living it up for a few years and then paying the price for the rest of your short life.
Well sorry for going on a bit, obviously the choice is yours and unfortunately most people only learn from there own mistakes and not from those of others. But good luck to you all whatever you do.
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