Can you take pills again once sober?

I started taking oxy about 21/2 years ago with my ex bf. we both got really addicted and it changed our relationship so I left him and we both have gotten clean on our own time. I Tried the whole suboxone thing with my doc, it worked for a couple months but i had to share my supply with him since he didnt have health insurance. Obviously the suboxone process is to be weaned down for months until youre taking the smallest amount possible. so once my doses got lower and lower i started not having enough for him so he freaked and took them from me. Knowing i wasnt going to get my next script of it for a few days i thought i would take a few pills to hold me over since i worked 70 hrs a week. kept doing them even after i got my script back and became even worse than i was before. finally dumped him, stayed on pills for a few more months, kept telling myself i would quit but wasnt doing it. Got sick of feeling like an addict and drove to another state, locked myself in a hotel for 4 days and went through all the pysical pain. I'm 10 days sober now, and am jw if I were to take one recreationally if it would f**k up everything and restart the withdrawal symptoms? I don't need to here about relapsing and all that sh*t because mentally I'm pretty strong. The physical part was the only thing I was scared of. Not the mental. I can handle that. So simply all I want to know is if physically I could pop a pill recreationally and not be thrown back to withdrawal symptoms.