Okay.. This maybe a long one, but bare with me..
Where do I start?
I'm 20 Years of age, and a few months ago I met this 27 Year old women online, We got talking and became friends, I started getting feelings for her but knew nothing would come of it, That's until it took a twist, and I admitted to her that I had feelings for her and that she admitted she did with me too. A month or so later we decided we was going to meet up, It went fantastic, She lives about 3 hours away from me, and when she got home she sent me a text saying so and a "I Love you" at the end that really put a smile on my face.
So, Let's speed up to present day. By nature she's a really busy person, and whenever we talk it seems to be brief, and we're not that intimate as we used to be (Cybersex) and because it's a bit of a long distance relationship, I kinda lack the reassurance that's she's "Mine" and I get a bit depressed because I'm scared I might loose her. She chatted about her past a little bit.. not much at all, but it made me jealous for some reason, More curiosity I think.. But it puts a downer on me, and I don't know why!!!!
A few hours ago.. I checked her facebook, (I've added her, but she's not accepted me) She said that she doesn't use facebook much at all in a brief convo we had with each other when we met up.. and before I added her, anyhow.. She enabled some of her pictures or the new facebook update did.. and just looking at them.. I had a megarush of happiness, sadness and jealousy all at the same time.. Why do I have these feelings!! The pictures on their were just her 25th B-Day and some holiday pictures, non with other blokes or flirty at all. I just felt so odd with those feelings..
I think I'm just a little needy in reassurance (She's admitted she's a big girl and can take care of herself), I think I'm also a little uptight about what she could get up too, and also very scared of loosing her.. I think that is the main thing.. scared of loosing her!
I want to be with her for the rest of my life.. she's 27 so I don't think she's doing it for a fling..
Just these feelings grr! and I'm scared to talk to her about it in fear of pushing her away...
Is this normal? what i'm experiencing.