I smoked marijuana for the first time in March, and smoked steadily for about two weeks. Then I smoked some really heavy stuff around April 24th, what I had been smoking just wasn't that great and I felt pretty normal afterwards. After smoking the strong stuff, I just haven't felt normal. I'm obsessive and just not myself, the whole world feels very surreal and I feel as though nothing is real, however this comes and goes, but it's always there a little bit, especially whenever I'm in stimulating environments such as the mall, lots of people, bright lights, tons of noises. And then I start feeling sick, and I just hate the feeling. Sometimes it gets bad enough I have a panic attack because it just feels so wonky, I'm not 100% this feeling started after smoking weed or not, it may have been a few days to a week before it really kicked in. I'm very paranoid this feeling won't go away, however I went trough a break up of a 4 year relationship on the 23rd, and I'm highly stressed in general. I've smoked a couple times this month, and felt fine while high. But I do to be able to function and feel normal without being high. I have a pre-diagnosis of BPD (borderline personality disorder) and disassociating is a symptom of that, but I can't distinguish what it is. I guess, what should I do, just give me some input? I've seen stories of the feeling lasting for years, and I'm kinda freaked out.