Fantasizing about my own hard genitals

I'm 16 and I feel like people make it sound so terrible if a girl masturbates but its totally normal. And even if your friends say they don't do it, trust me they do. We girls that live with our parents and can't go out and by dildos, have to get creative so what I do most of the time is just use one of my thickest makeup brushes(make sure they are clean!) and sometimes I've just gotten one of my moms thick pads and foiled them with wax paper, I r being so proud cause that was seriously so creative lol well hope I helped even though it's super late